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Luca
For people who can't relate or have never been through things like this, it probably doesn't make sense or even seems stupid that I'm this affected by reading a work of fiction. But being tortured to that extent and then having the abusers refuse to put me out of my misery so they could do it again, gives a new perspective to watching/reading horror.
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Luca
It's honestly a miracle that I'm even okay with leaving my bedroom. It was many years ago but still. My therapist specializes in cases like mine and has had a lot of patients who either killed themselves or developed debilitating agoraphobia. I have worked through it as much as I'm going to be able to and the rest is treatment resistant.
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Luca
I've never discussed this openly anywhere, but when I was 20, I was at the mall with my mom and there was a guy acting really suspicious and kind of following me in the parking lot. And making a lot of weird phone calls. I had a panic attack that was so severe that I passed out.
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Luca
My mom called the police on the guy just in case but I'm still convinced that he was going to kidnap me and torture me or auction me off to be human trafficked or used as torture porn. I screamed and cried the whole way home and didn't leave my house for several days.
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Luca
Someday I would like to make a thread explaining everything but it's pretty gory and nauseating and I don't know if it would be allowed here, or if anyone would even be okay after reading it :/ Some people have already alluded that they wouldn't be. I've had therapists feel sick and walk out after hearing it. Complex PTSD is so much fun! :( :(
Homulilly
Homulilly
:( Hugs. I’ve always been terrified of zombies and once developed PTSD-like symptoms after finishing a zombie novel. Jumped at every noise and every person getting too close to me for a month. I probably appeared crazy to a lot of people back then too. I can’t fully relate to what you’re going through, but I believe you. Hugs.
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Luca
Thank you so much <3 Yeah, part of the problem is that people sometimes don't believe me. Nobody thinks this stuff actually happens because the government and law enforcement like to sweep it under the rug when it happens because it makes them look bad. Especially when it happens to children :(
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Luca
I'm sorry that happened to you :( Hugs!
I don't like zombies either. And I definitely don't think you're crazy!
maycontainthunder
maycontainthunder
Sending Dog V4 vibes including muddy feet, cold noses and hugs.
Aspychata
Aspychata
Like l so get this. I had to ask someone to call the police when l was a younger kid. It was a older guy following me and my girlfriend.
Aspychata
Aspychata
I can't watch certain things because they trigger me. I was almost gang raped twice in one lifetime.
Aspychata
Aspychata
What's scary is you think it ends with old age, l get harassed more.
Aspychata
Aspychata
It's okay. You will get thru this, and you will be healthy and have 10 more dog babies.
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Luca
I’m so sorry you went through that :( I should clarify, what I mentioned here was a PTSD response to something that actually happened to me. The mall thing was not the actual source of trauma.
I hope you’re doing better today :)
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