sry I don´t want to worry you, but this sounds not healthy. it sounds like you are not sure how you really feel or your feelings change every second. it sounds like you have no objective view of your situation and that your perception is contorted very strong.
I can distance myself, but I think some people here want to help you, but are maybe worried when they think they can´t reach someone and walk against walls.
I can distance myself, but I think some people here want to help you, but are maybe worried when they think they can´t reach someone and walk against walls.
next day: everything is fine, we are all happy, my family is the best in the world
well, this does not sound like a functional or healthy family (atmosphere). it sounds total crazy.
like people who think everything is nice, but it isn´t, because they are already to long in the situation and lost their objective perception.