David Esp

I am a man of mid-60's age, as of January 2022.

I have only in recent years fully understood and accepted that I have AS-Lite and iADHD

By AS-Lite (my term) I mean Asperger's

By iADHD (my term) I mean Inattentive ADHD. I have also called it ADhD. ADD seems a more sensible umbrella-term, but I understand that term has gone out of professional fashion. Latter negatively affected me because...

I only realised there was such a thing as iADHD in the last couple of years - having previously rejected (hence never studied in depth) the possibility that I had ADHD because physically I am the polar opposite of high-energy! Instead, for me, "it all goes on inside" i.e. I have an unusually active (in certain ways) mind - that can makes me inattentive externally.

Luckily (or from evolution?) my hyperfocus kicks-in automatically on currently-fascinating and life-critical matters. Latter can be because they are inherently life-critical, unexpected emergencies, high-responsibility situations or when work deadlines are imminent - at which point they become critical (then - from fear and anger with myself - I suddenly work intensely, and effectively at that last-minute). Surprisingly (to me) I have found that I can better deal with critical situations than most people - and "pull rabbits out of hats" i.e. solve problems or get things working that people thought were impossible (I take up such challenges tenaciously - partly to defeat the opinions of such people, motivated by my own ego).

Now - at this moderately advanced age - that I have finally identified "my home planet", it remains for me to better understand it and adapt to it.