I generally feel really depressed, I am 14, and I am about to get diagnosed with depression, I think it’s necessary because what I am feeling is not OCD and I feel I argue with my parents a lot and get angry at people who think they are better than me.
I learn Russian and have LDR girlfriend (she turned 17), our birthdays are not too far apart and close, but I had to fight for my life because of depression because all these people were doubting me and people saying they are proud online that they know a language more than another person.
I am sorry, I got very depressed and I feel I would rather die than live a miserable life, I am suffering a lot and the fact people in this world want to make people applaud them for their achievements when others are suffering is awful.
At your age, honestly, this isnt too surprising that you're having these issues.
Now, I've been on the internet since there's BEEN an internet. I'm talking like, the REALLY early stuff that even most longtime computer users probably dont remember or didnt experience. Heck, I've been using computers since I was a kid, in the days of DOS. In all these years, I've learned alot of things.
And the main piece of advice I can give you is... stop caring about what you see on the Net. Seriously. Comparing yourself to someone else is, frankly, a waste of time. It accomplishes nothing, is the reason. But it also can lead to attitude issues later on. You see these people often bragging about how skilled they are in whatever, and being so mean to others, and well.... you dont want to be like that, do you?
I've seen that sort of attitude OFTEN. My main hobby is video games, and the sort that I'm best at is fighting games. Fun, but what a nasty community there is around that. So many are people who will absolutely brag about how awesome they are. Now, being honest about one's skill in something is one thing. If you're good, you're good. But "bragging" is very different. That condescending nature of it, and the purpose of putting others down while doing it... that's bragging. And most of that community is like that. The jerks seem to make a side hobby out of insulting newer players. Very sore losers too. And honestly it doesnt even matter what your skill level is, when dealing with them. I play those games at a very high skill level myself. Yet even when clearly demonstrating that, I'd still be hit with a barrage of insults because I dont play the "right" way or some gibberish like that. Or just because they felt like being jerks. And this always seemed so wrong to me. When I'm playing one of those with someone, my view is, if my opponent isnt having a good time... then neither am I, really. The games are supposed to be fun, that's the whole bloody point. But so many people are, well... remember that line associated with the Joker? "Why so serious?" That's a question that was always in my mind when dealing with those people. It shouldnt matter so much what someone's skill is... the point is to have a good time. Why couldnt they just do that, and let others have the chance to have a good time too?
That's what's important, after all. And that's a lesson that so very, very many years on the Net had taught me long before I got into those. Your own skill level is what it is. It doesnt matter what the skill of others is. What matters is how YOU approach your own experience in your hobby or whatever. If others are being braggy? Well, that's not even worth your time to get bothered by. And besides... they may not be as skilled as you think. When someone says "I'm good at this thing", the ONLY thing that truly tells you is that they specifically said "I'm good at this thing". It doesnt guarantee that they ARE good at it. They could be lying through their teeth. And on the internet, that is very common. I often refer to the Net as "a bastion of lies". Again, this coming from so much experience with it. Dont trust the things that random idiots on the Net say to you, or the random bragging you see. Even if they show "proof"... that can be faked, after all.
But again, there's no reason for any of that nonsense to matter to you. If your goal is to learn a language, then that is exactly what you should focus on: Learning the language. Focusing instead on the often-annoying activities of others will only slow you down, making it difficult for you to progress. Seriously. If there are people in your life that are doing that to you... just keep away from them. If people on the internet are doing it.... well, maybe it's time to not be on the Net so much.
But also, and I know how cliched this is going to sound.... improve your attitude. The moment you tell yourself "I cant do this" is the moment you've lost the battle. That's another lesson I had to learn the hard way. I know it's difficult to change that, but it's worth doing.
Focus on your goal, ignore idiots, and simply get things done as best you can. What you're after isnt something that can be learned quickly. It's a tough road for pretty much anyone, whether they want to admit it or not. Keep going, dont give up, and you'll get what you want.
Judging by your posts, I don’t know if your depressed as I am but the school system in my city is terrible and I feel I am way more depressed than people my age.
Yeah, you aint alone in that crap with the school.
It aint just you. Honestly the school system as a whole is bloody awful. I spent most of my school years being constantly bullied, just because. Eventually I put a stop to it, but it required outright manipulation and control over the faculty. Which, yes, is possible to do, due to how freaking apathetic the faculty at most schools are. That I had to do ANY of that is just an example of how bloody stupid the whole thing is. And really, most schools are like that. Unpleasant places that arent even good at the one freaking thing they're supposed to do. I dunno about everyone else here, but I honestly learned next to nothing from highschool. Learned to type... that's about it. Everything else, I learned on my own outside of school. That's how bad they were at actual teaching. Just... bleh.
I wont rant about that too much though, I've already done that elsewhere on this forum. More than once. Just know that you arent alone in your experience with school. That particular experience is in fact very common. As is the depression that can result.
There, I'm done rambling, sorry that was so long, I'm not good at being concise.
