This was asked of me recently, and it might be the best question I ever had to answer.
I havent been on here in a while, and I have missed it a lot. I kind of went off into some really deep crap, covered in some nasty depression. I climbed out of that as I have 1,000 times before. I also had some horrible crap happen with my job and I had to find a way to move past that fast. I got really lost, but also nearly instantly thrown into a huge replacement position.
I have been living overwhelmed, but I was also grateful to find a new way on my own.
During this I had to straighten out my head fast and I couldnt, or thought I couldnt. Things were way past what I was able to sort out. So, I made the call to the only theropist who has ever really seemed to care about me. I always feel weak doing this, but he knows all about me.
In this I didnt get to mask my issues, or lean on my excuses about ADHD, ASD or being a loner, an introvert, an INFJ personality type (blah, blah, blah)... None of that crap was allowed and I was shut down everytime I tried to go there, and I tried to go there a lot... We all lean on our excuses (and that includes me).
Because of the obvious reasons, I was asked a few simple questions...
I was asked, "Chance what happened to you that you feel you dont matter or that you are not worthy?" He already knew all those answers, so there was no way to wiggle out of it. But he threw in a new twist...
He asked, "What would make you feel like you are worthy? Forget the issues, the so-called limitations, and just say what would fulfill you..." I didnt think I knew that answer at first, but I did know it and it sort of shocked me.
I dont want to list mine just yet... I just want to see if anyone else will reach that deep.
With all the crap I have to deal with. It gave me a reason to rethink a lot of stuff in my life.
We often place ourselves in boxes we were never supposed to be placed in. Sometimes we need someone to get us out of the funk that holds us there.
If you feel like it, and want to dig down deep... Think about any struggles that you are facing... Dig for what happened to you? What shuts you down? What fulfills you?
What would realistically make you feel whole? I needed that answer, but it took someone else to get it out of me... It sort of was a life changer, regardless of any of the other stuff going on (and right now there is a lot), but such is LIFE. : )
I havent been on here in a while, and I have missed it a lot. I kind of went off into some really deep crap, covered in some nasty depression. I climbed out of that as I have 1,000 times before. I also had some horrible crap happen with my job and I had to find a way to move past that fast. I got really lost, but also nearly instantly thrown into a huge replacement position.
I have been living overwhelmed, but I was also grateful to find a new way on my own.
During this I had to straighten out my head fast and I couldnt, or thought I couldnt. Things were way past what I was able to sort out. So, I made the call to the only theropist who has ever really seemed to care about me. I always feel weak doing this, but he knows all about me.
In this I didnt get to mask my issues, or lean on my excuses about ADHD, ASD or being a loner, an introvert, an INFJ personality type (blah, blah, blah)... None of that crap was allowed and I was shut down everytime I tried to go there, and I tried to go there a lot... We all lean on our excuses (and that includes me).
Because of the obvious reasons, I was asked a few simple questions...
I was asked, "Chance what happened to you that you feel you dont matter or that you are not worthy?" He already knew all those answers, so there was no way to wiggle out of it. But he threw in a new twist...
He asked, "What would make you feel like you are worthy? Forget the issues, the so-called limitations, and just say what would fulfill you..." I didnt think I knew that answer at first, but I did know it and it sort of shocked me.
I dont want to list mine just yet... I just want to see if anyone else will reach that deep.
With all the crap I have to deal with. It gave me a reason to rethink a lot of stuff in my life.
We often place ourselves in boxes we were never supposed to be placed in. Sometimes we need someone to get us out of the funk that holds us there.
If you feel like it, and want to dig down deep... Think about any struggles that you are facing... Dig for what happened to you? What shuts you down? What fulfills you?
What would realistically make you feel whole? I needed that answer, but it took someone else to get it out of me... It sort of was a life changer, regardless of any of the other stuff going on (and right now there is a lot), but such is LIFE. : )