I have known since I was quite young that I do not have the capability to believe in anything. Everything is a probability for me. This is not intentional at all. I am neither proud of it or bothered by it. When I was younger, I tried to convince myself that I believed in things because I wanted to be "normal".
In this case, I am not talking about moral, political or philosophical beliefs. One word for so many concepts... cripes.
I do "accept" things that are the highest probability based on my observations or the observations of others. Scientific theories that prove themselves over time score high on my probability scale.
I am pretty sure this has a lot to do with my place on the "spectrum" (yeah... low probability that exists).
This means I cannot be religious. I cannot make assumptions about what others want without them telling me. I cannot understand things unless I build a theoretical framework around them. I do not assign a high probability to what people tell me until I have high confidence they are sincere, knowledgeable and not deluded.
I am not an atheist because disbelief itself is a belief (I generally don't say this to atheists because I don't want to be punched)
I am an absolute agnostic.
I only felt belief one time. It is the only way I can relate to believers. That was on about 300 micrograms of LSD and 3 grams of mushrooms at a Grateful Dead concert. I saw rainbow DNA strands emitting from Jerry Garcia's head and somehow got the idea he was God and the world was going to collapse into a spiritual singularity.
I do have unexplainable experiences in my life... but that does not point me towards belief.
Is there anyone here like this? Have you been a non-believer then started to believe? Have you always been a believer? What is it like to believe for you?
No judgements from me
In this case, I am not talking about moral, political or philosophical beliefs. One word for so many concepts... cripes.
I do "accept" things that are the highest probability based on my observations or the observations of others. Scientific theories that prove themselves over time score high on my probability scale.
I am pretty sure this has a lot to do with my place on the "spectrum" (yeah... low probability that exists).
This means I cannot be religious. I cannot make assumptions about what others want without them telling me. I cannot understand things unless I build a theoretical framework around them. I do not assign a high probability to what people tell me until I have high confidence they are sincere, knowledgeable and not deluded.
I am not an atheist because disbelief itself is a belief (I generally don't say this to atheists because I don't want to be punched)
I am an absolute agnostic.
I only felt belief one time. It is the only way I can relate to believers. That was on about 300 micrograms of LSD and 3 grams of mushrooms at a Grateful Dead concert. I saw rainbow DNA strands emitting from Jerry Garcia's head and somehow got the idea he was God and the world was going to collapse into a spiritual singularity.
I do have unexplainable experiences in my life... but that does not point me towards belief.
Is there anyone here like this? Have you been a non-believer then started to believe? Have you always been a believer? What is it like to believe for you?
No judgements from me