The ability to do what I want without doubting myself. The expectation of getting my own way or having my ideas put into practice, believing that I have the highest truth at that moment and feel it is the right thing to do.
Confidence doesn’t get its own way all the time of course. When it needs to compromise, it’s able to, and that doesn’t make it feel like it loses confidence.
So why do we sometimes lose confidence? Why do we doubt what it is we want or whether we can or should have it?
Because we make our own reality, when we become conscious of doing so, we attract all kinds of energies and ideas wanting to express themselves. It can become quite a battle as to whether we get influenced by these ideas or not, to the point where we become susceptible to doubting, and losing confidence,
If I’m not being how you think I should be, will you feel differently towards me?
Sometimes I feel like I’m literally someone else. I think differently, behave differently, feel differently, about things that I’d previously been sure about. It can seem incongruous, yet makes perfect sense at the time. The question is, which one is me?
Both appear valid. One seems to make things easier, while the other seems to make things feel more real. I like reality, but it can feel colder, harder to deal with. I definitely like easier, but there can often be something missing.
Dealing with people isn’t easy when you can feel differently from one moment to the next. I can only imagine how it’s experienced. It’s like sometimes I just don’t want to do it that way, say it that way, behave in that way, just because previously I already did. Yet, when this happens, because it can seem so unexpected to those around me, it changes things. Rather than this difference being seen as simply revealing how I’m feeling in the moment, I’m now seen as somebody else. Almost like I’ve been re-categorised or re-labelled. As a result, I feel I’m no longer accepted as I am, and any attempt to be how I’ve been is now seen as just trying to be something I’m not.
Why should I be any less real because I feel differently at different times? I’m just being honest. But I find people expect me to be who they think I am, and if I suddenly appear to be somebody else, they might no longer be able to accept me at all. In their eyes I can only be who they think they already know. Anything else seems wrong, almost fraudulent, creating doubt and uncertainty, which isn’t the best way of being around people.
I want people to be themselves. Neither judging or criticising. But sometimes the desire to change things appears. It then becomes easier to let go of their wants or feelings and just say or do what I feel is right instead. Not that I care any less, only that I care less if it bothers them or not. I remove my higher self from the equation – effectively my censor, and begin to be more direct, straight, real. When I do this it makes me feel more confident, and there’s a danger I can go too far. I like the way confidence feels, and it’s for this reason that to experience it properly, I have to transform my ego so it can’t get in the way.
What I feel is what I feel. If I’m confident there is nothing there to doubt. I can do the right thing without worrying what other people might think about it.
To achieve this I must be in the present. Talk less, stand back more, be more in my own space. I can’t be so concerned about everything that’s going on, just in case it might be something I need to know. I need to let go, surrender, allow more. It’s alright if things don’t end up the way they could’ve. It doesn’t matter if I would’ve done it differently had I known. Life isn’t perfect, even if I think I could be. I just need to focus on the positivity. Not be afraid of the fear. I need to do what I want, in the way that I do it, and trust that the rest will take care of itself. This releases me from feeling the depression I can sometimes get, and allows me to be confident and productive.
Confidence doesn’t get its own way all the time of course. When it needs to compromise, it’s able to, and that doesn’t make it feel like it loses confidence.
So why do we sometimes lose confidence? Why do we doubt what it is we want or whether we can or should have it?
Because we make our own reality, when we become conscious of doing so, we attract all kinds of energies and ideas wanting to express themselves. It can become quite a battle as to whether we get influenced by these ideas or not, to the point where we become susceptible to doubting, and losing confidence,
If I’m not being how you think I should be, will you feel differently towards me?
Sometimes I feel like I’m literally someone else. I think differently, behave differently, feel differently, about things that I’d previously been sure about. It can seem incongruous, yet makes perfect sense at the time. The question is, which one is me?
Both appear valid. One seems to make things easier, while the other seems to make things feel more real. I like reality, but it can feel colder, harder to deal with. I definitely like easier, but there can often be something missing.
Dealing with people isn’t easy when you can feel differently from one moment to the next. I can only imagine how it’s experienced. It’s like sometimes I just don’t want to do it that way, say it that way, behave in that way, just because previously I already did. Yet, when this happens, because it can seem so unexpected to those around me, it changes things. Rather than this difference being seen as simply revealing how I’m feeling in the moment, I’m now seen as somebody else. Almost like I’ve been re-categorised or re-labelled. As a result, I feel I’m no longer accepted as I am, and any attempt to be how I’ve been is now seen as just trying to be something I’m not.
Why should I be any less real because I feel differently at different times? I’m just being honest. But I find people expect me to be who they think I am, and if I suddenly appear to be somebody else, they might no longer be able to accept me at all. In their eyes I can only be who they think they already know. Anything else seems wrong, almost fraudulent, creating doubt and uncertainty, which isn’t the best way of being around people.
I want people to be themselves. Neither judging or criticising. But sometimes the desire to change things appears. It then becomes easier to let go of their wants or feelings and just say or do what I feel is right instead. Not that I care any less, only that I care less if it bothers them or not. I remove my higher self from the equation – effectively my censor, and begin to be more direct, straight, real. When I do this it makes me feel more confident, and there’s a danger I can go too far. I like the way confidence feels, and it’s for this reason that to experience it properly, I have to transform my ego so it can’t get in the way.
What I feel is what I feel. If I’m confident there is nothing there to doubt. I can do the right thing without worrying what other people might think about it.
To achieve this I must be in the present. Talk less, stand back more, be more in my own space. I can’t be so concerned about everything that’s going on, just in case it might be something I need to know. I need to let go, surrender, allow more. It’s alright if things don’t end up the way they could’ve. It doesn’t matter if I would’ve done it differently had I known. Life isn’t perfect, even if I think I could be. I just need to focus on the positivity. Not be afraid of the fear. I need to do what I want, in the way that I do it, and trust that the rest will take care of itself. This releases me from feeling the depression I can sometimes get, and allows me to be confident and productive.
