There's a lot of different sides to autism and we all experience different symptoms and parts uniquely and some people experience parts that others do not.
What autistic trait(s) do you struggle with the most? For me, it's social communication problems and repetitiveness / rigidness (obsessions and interests).
My examiner used the word eccentric to describe my core. I have to agree with him. This has resulted in people viewing me as alien, strange (and not in a cute way), it's lead to severe isolation, and a habit of magical thinking to make up for the lack of real world communication I experience. People don't understand why I don't feel the way they do, have the same aspirations they do, or think the way they do.
Regarding repetition and rigidness, I have to drive a certain road every morning before starting my day otherwise I will be upset. This drive takes thirty minutes. I buy seven or eight pairs of the same shorts, same color, same shirts, and have zero diversity in my wardrobe. I will say the same word hundreds of times a day to comfort myself. I pace for hours on end every day in the same spot. I am very, very strict about my interests and this has also caused a lot of social problems for me. I cannot bond with people if they do not share my same special interests. I also have a very difficult time having full length, healthy conversations if they do not include my interests. If someone interrupts my routine I can barely hold it in. If this happens two or three times without a break then I have a meltdown.
I would say the runner up for me has to be my anger and irritability. I get very angry when my routine is ruined, under bright lights like at Walmart, and I have had meltdowns because of a dog barking. I am not overly emotional in any other way. My spontaneous anger is something else though... and even on medication it's sometimes impossible to control.
What autistic trait(s) do you struggle with the most? For me, it's social communication problems and repetitiveness / rigidness (obsessions and interests).
My examiner used the word eccentric to describe my core. I have to agree with him. This has resulted in people viewing me as alien, strange (and not in a cute way), it's lead to severe isolation, and a habit of magical thinking to make up for the lack of real world communication I experience. People don't understand why I don't feel the way they do, have the same aspirations they do, or think the way they do.
Regarding repetition and rigidness, I have to drive a certain road every morning before starting my day otherwise I will be upset. This drive takes thirty minutes. I buy seven or eight pairs of the same shorts, same color, same shirts, and have zero diversity in my wardrobe. I will say the same word hundreds of times a day to comfort myself. I pace for hours on end every day in the same spot. I am very, very strict about my interests and this has also caused a lot of social problems for me. I cannot bond with people if they do not share my same special interests. I also have a very difficult time having full length, healthy conversations if they do not include my interests. If someone interrupts my routine I can barely hold it in. If this happens two or three times without a break then I have a meltdown.
I would say the runner up for me has to be my anger and irritability. I get very angry when my routine is ruined, under bright lights like at Walmart, and I have had meltdowns because of a dog barking. I am not overly emotional in any other way. My spontaneous anger is something else though... and even on medication it's sometimes impossible to control.