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I just spilled my guts about some deeply personal genetic & sexual health issues to my female best friend, kind of a 'graysexual' coming out, except there's the anatomical side. I told her she's the only one I trust about this. My struggle is about how to tell her I can't replace her, how I worry about finding the time to see her. I I say friend because she also told me she just escaped an abusive relationship & trusts women more, which doesn't deter me because I could take or leave the sexual aspect. Thus, I told her that if I'm a clingy fool, it's because I want to help her feel safe & supported.
I know I'm in the 'friend zone' because I'm an autistic loner with a dark past & no experience. I always forgive her because it's on me to be a radically accepting long-term companion no matter what. I can't ignore the person who brought me past the 'forever alone' crisis. Just finding another girl wouldn't solve any of this, I know someone this accepting comes along once in a lifetime. I know we need more chances to guide each other past all the trauma together but I don't know how to say it simply.
I know this is going to take serious patience & that's OK, for that much I am ready. I'm here reposting this from wrong planet in order for us to find ways to help each other & get together more. I can't begin to say how much I appreciate any wisdom & replies here.
I know I'm in the 'friend zone' because I'm an autistic loner with a dark past & no experience. I always forgive her because it's on me to be a radically accepting long-term companion no matter what. I can't ignore the person who brought me past the 'forever alone' crisis. Just finding another girl wouldn't solve any of this, I know someone this accepting comes along once in a lifetime. I know we need more chances to guide each other past all the trauma together but I don't know how to say it simply.
I know this is going to take serious patience & that's OK, for that much I am ready. I'm here reposting this from wrong planet in order for us to find ways to help each other & get together more. I can't begin to say how much I appreciate any wisdom & replies here.