I hate the social code that inow have to learn to adopt into my way of being i have to make a social face and and mask to use to even be considered normal and functional... i hate that iam treated different and things are assumed about because i do not act like the code says - where did this code come from.. the evolution of it is completely illogical and full of contradiction but many are too emotional needing approval/wanting cnnection to ever consider these things i think. Most people are sheep that just want there needs met without the deeper contemplation of all of it. How on earth am i going to manage a life with this kind of ridiculousness
ive been slowly going through every encounter i have and depicting it until i find the understanding of their reaction then having to sort it out morally so i can respond in a manner that will suit the situation, im exhausted and dont want to play these games anymore. i feel hopeless and on the verg of jumping off a bridge i dont think i can manage all this alone
ive been slowly going through every encounter i have and depicting it until i find the understanding of their reaction then having to sort it out morally so i can respond in a manner that will suit the situation, im exhausted and dont want to play these games anymore. i feel hopeless and on the verg of jumping off a bridge i dont think i can manage all this alone