For the past month, Ive been playing a game online with a person who ends up connecting me with other players, which makes the game more fun. So I thought to myself, maybe this is it. Maybe I can do something with this social interaction. So eventually, they ask for my Instagram. I figure it's because my voice is so bizzare that they were curious as to what face it was attached. After positive comments on my looks, I don't hear from him again. Then after a week he wakes me up at 7am to play. I am excited because I thought he blocked me for some reason, so I go on. I am on for an hour and he is not online.
Before today I felt weird. I felt confused that he stopped playing. For the weeks prior, he was on everyday, and even spoke of being on for 24 hours. Then I show my face, and he's not online anymore. I am feeling stressed because I am feeling manipulated. He expressed that he found me attractive, but it is known that we both have partners, and I am not planning on doing anything to hurt anyone. But for some reason I just feel like now that he knows what I look like, he is playing this game beyond the game we were playing. Idk why I feel so upset in this way. I am also upset because I feel like I ruined the possibility of friendship by showing my face. I feel like I sabotaged myself.
Before today I felt weird. I felt confused that he stopped playing. For the weeks prior, he was on everyday, and even spoke of being on for 24 hours. Then I show my face, and he's not online anymore. I am feeling stressed because I am feeling manipulated. He expressed that he found me attractive, but it is known that we both have partners, and I am not planning on doing anything to hurt anyone. But for some reason I just feel like now that he knows what I look like, he is playing this game beyond the game we were playing. Idk why I feel so upset in this way. I am also upset because I feel like I ruined the possibility of friendship by showing my face. I feel like I sabotaged myself.