Mis-fit
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Hi,
My name is Bob. I am a self diagnosed Aspie. I have had trouble since the day I was born, well, okay, since I entered Pre-K. I was picked on by a guy named Butch. I will never forget. It was my first experience with someone so hateful. I was picked on throughout every grade from then on, even into college. After college, I was picked on at work! I couldn't make good friends with anyone except in the first grade. His name was Gaines. I think he must have had Asperger's too because we got along so well. Tragedy struck when we were 21. He was hit by a drunk driver on his motorcycle and killed. I grieved for years/decades, and I am still sad. I never had another friend like him. Never found anyone I got along with that well. I had surface friends, most of them would pick on me and I just accepted it because I couldn't escape being picked on. Anywhere. Not even at church. I knew I was different, but didn't know how or what made me different. I am very gifted. I am an inventor, a classic car mechanic, drummer, without a drum set presently, key boardist, I carve leather, and draw in 3D on the computer rather easily. I got tired of being picked on and have been alone, except for acquaintances for 14 years now.
What I cannot do is make, keep or find a friend. No matter how I try. I am hoping I can find some people here that I can relate to, and I have already. I just joined yesterday and yesterday found two people that I got along with better than anyone since I lost Gaines. I cannot de-code things, like some puzzles or remember well, or socialize at all. I don't get most jokes, unless they are on me, and even then not always. I get a big "0" when it comes to interpreting non-verbal queues, meanings, and inferences. I mean ZERO! And because of that I have suffered in the social realm terribly. If you want me to understand something, please just say what you mean. I know most of you already do that because your like me, but I really can't read between the lines. Totally blind to them.
I have dyslexia, a very bad case of it, but I manage to get by. I catch most of my mistakes when typing, but my fingers don't hit the letters in the order I want them or intend them to. Little red squiggly lines are a good help.
The following paragraph is about my book. If I am not supposed to post this here, I ask a moderator to please move or remove it.
I wrote a book about perspective and how we can choose to have the one we want, within reason. Like reality will dictate what framework we have to work within, but we are free to choose what we want to believe, perceive and can. Like framed art work, we have to work within boundaries, like the frame, but we are free to draw, paint or pencil any picture, abstract, live art or whatever we wish within that frame. In my book I explain how our perspective forms, how it works and how to choose it. It is totally an Aspie thing.
Well if you see a post I wrote, please feel free to reply. I am as open to people, even people who are different than me, as I can be.
My name is Bob. I am a self diagnosed Aspie. I have had trouble since the day I was born, well, okay, since I entered Pre-K. I was picked on by a guy named Butch. I will never forget. It was my first experience with someone so hateful. I was picked on throughout every grade from then on, even into college. After college, I was picked on at work! I couldn't make good friends with anyone except in the first grade. His name was Gaines. I think he must have had Asperger's too because we got along so well. Tragedy struck when we were 21. He was hit by a drunk driver on his motorcycle and killed. I grieved for years/decades, and I am still sad. I never had another friend like him. Never found anyone I got along with that well. I had surface friends, most of them would pick on me and I just accepted it because I couldn't escape being picked on. Anywhere. Not even at church. I knew I was different, but didn't know how or what made me different. I am very gifted. I am an inventor, a classic car mechanic, drummer, without a drum set presently, key boardist, I carve leather, and draw in 3D on the computer rather easily. I got tired of being picked on and have been alone, except for acquaintances for 14 years now.
What I cannot do is make, keep or find a friend. No matter how I try. I am hoping I can find some people here that I can relate to, and I have already. I just joined yesterday and yesterday found two people that I got along with better than anyone since I lost Gaines. I cannot de-code things, like some puzzles or remember well, or socialize at all. I don't get most jokes, unless they are on me, and even then not always. I get a big "0" when it comes to interpreting non-verbal queues, meanings, and inferences. I mean ZERO! And because of that I have suffered in the social realm terribly. If you want me to understand something, please just say what you mean. I know most of you already do that because your like me, but I really can't read between the lines. Totally blind to them.
I have dyslexia, a very bad case of it, but I manage to get by. I catch most of my mistakes when typing, but my fingers don't hit the letters in the order I want them or intend them to. Little red squiggly lines are a good help.
The following paragraph is about my book. If I am not supposed to post this here, I ask a moderator to please move or remove it.
I wrote a book about perspective and how we can choose to have the one we want, within reason. Like reality will dictate what framework we have to work within, but we are free to choose what we want to believe, perceive and can. Like framed art work, we have to work within boundaries, like the frame, but we are free to draw, paint or pencil any picture, abstract, live art or whatever we wish within that frame. In my book I explain how our perspective forms, how it works and how to choose it. It is totally an Aspie thing.
Well if you see a post I wrote, please feel free to reply. I am as open to people, even people who are different than me, as I can be.
