Robby
Well-Known Member
Hey everyone, I need some advice! I interviewed for a library page part time job awhile back, the interviewers were nice & it went well I actually was offered the position. The supervisor seems like a very nice guy. However, I'm kind of freaking out because my start day is looming & I'm just afraid. I'm afraid of the unknown & being around unfamilar people, & I am also openly gay, & I am still dealing with ptsd from severe bullying I experienced in school due to being gay. The library where I will be working is a fairly tolerant place supposedly, but I'm still nervous. Basically in this job I'd be organizing & shelving books, something I could easily handle, but it also mentions helping people find things not sure how much of that I'd actually have to do. Have any of you worked as a part time library page? I think parts of it I could handle ok.
How about telling my supervisor that I am mildly autistic? I haven't brought it up yet but maybe after I start I could to let him know certain things I am good at & some areas I am not so good at? Basically the thing that terrifies me most is having to work with the general public, but as a page, surely this wouldn't be a major requirement.
I am going to my orientation this week to see how that all goes. If I still feel anxious, I may bail before my start date. That's happened before, I get offered jobs but I get so terrified before I start that at the last minute I find some excuse to bail because I am just scared of people, & of judgmental comments. People just don't know how damaging bullying is to people, it stays with you for life.
I just don't know what to do. Should I give this job a chance? Or should I try the Nursing Home job that the Vocational Rehabilitation office in my town offered me? They help people with mild or severe disabilities find work. I'm really freaking out over being out of my comfort zone.
How about telling my supervisor that I am mildly autistic? I haven't brought it up yet but maybe after I start I could to let him know certain things I am good at & some areas I am not so good at? Basically the thing that terrifies me most is having to work with the general public, but as a page, surely this wouldn't be a major requirement.
I am going to my orientation this week to see how that all goes. If I still feel anxious, I may bail before my start date. That's happened before, I get offered jobs but I get so terrified before I start that at the last minute I find some excuse to bail because I am just scared of people, & of judgmental comments. People just don't know how damaging bullying is to people, it stays with you for life.
I just don't know what to do. Should I give this job a chance? Or should I try the Nursing Home job that the Vocational Rehabilitation office in my town offered me? They help people with mild or severe disabilities find work. I'm really freaking out over being out of my comfort zone.