Hi, my name is Joanna and first, sorry for my english. I thought that Im pretty comunicative, but my first article just return to me from the guy that does grammar correction (Im trying to do science as a job) and it was all red. Paper, not the guy, but the guy probably also was... So Im no longer sure if I can speak english properly. Probably i don't. I've tried to look up some polish forums (fora?) about autism, but the results made me sad. All I got was something like "help, my child has autism, we are all doomed". I prefer not to be doomed. Im here because I have almost all possible signs of Asperger's Syndrome (the female style, with hard work to "fit in"). Im doing pretty good, but Im often just tired. I have a lot of practical questions like: if I would wear headphones all the time would I become even more sensitive to sounds? Or: If I cant stand something touchng bottom of my feet should I wear smaller sizes of socks and strech them even if my toes are cramped and chafed at the top? If answears are aready somewhere here I will find them, I swear, just give me some time. 
Im afraid to be diagnosed because I might use it as an excuse to make less efort to be more, well, more like other people. Being like other people, I mean more social, forces me to get into creative mode, to solve actual problems. Without it im too focused on minor things and I can be going like this for days. Seriously, when I am not forced by other people to do the real life I have priorities like watching my shampoo bottle slowly getting empty after each use. I dont want this kind of life... I feel like this forum is very friendly place. Person who wrote comunicates I saw while I was signing in must be very nice and tolerant... Writing here was some kind of dealing with emergency for me because Im... Im repeating myself. Im tired. IM TIRED. That feels good. IM TIRED!!! And Im drinking and smoking too much to feel release. If I did something wrong I will fix it. And I will not do this again. Seriously, if I made any mistake just tell me.
Thank You for letting me write here.
Im afraid to be diagnosed because I might use it as an excuse to make less efort to be more, well, more like other people. Being like other people, I mean more social, forces me to get into creative mode, to solve actual problems. Without it im too focused on minor things and I can be going like this for days. Seriously, when I am not forced by other people to do the real life I have priorities like watching my shampoo bottle slowly getting empty after each use. I dont want this kind of life... I feel like this forum is very friendly place. Person who wrote comunicates I saw while I was signing in must be very nice and tolerant... Writing here was some kind of dealing with emergency for me because Im... Im repeating myself. Im tired. IM TIRED. That feels good. IM TIRED!!! And Im drinking and smoking too much to feel release. If I did something wrong I will fix it. And I will not do this again. Seriously, if I made any mistake just tell me.Thank You for letting me write here.
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