For the last few years I have been writing and developing a musical about my experiences of being autistic. I am at the stage of editing the current version, and I really want to know about some other people's experiences to make it as realistic and relatable as possible. Can anyone tell me any examples of times in social situations where they have been irrationally anxious that the other person may be angry with them or mocking them (even though this wasn't the case)?
Additionally, do you have any general times when relationships can be anxiety-inducing because of your autism?
Interesting concept. I read the title and immediately had a mental image of a group of people on one side of a stage singing about how inclusive and accommodating they are. A single person on the other side is singing about how lonely he (or she) is and not allowed to participate. As he moves to the main group, they move away, directly contradicting what they are singing. The single person puts on a full face mask and joins the main group for a while, but then is pushed aside again. I realize this is not what you are asking, but that is how I visualize it. I'm sure most of us have something similar to say.
As for actual experiences, I cannot give you anything specific. There are lots of them, but they are all sort of melded together into one jumble. The best way to describe it is like a force field or wall. When I try to introduce myself, the stress and anxiety get stronger the closer I get. Eventually, I get brain paralysis or become incoherent. The symptoms are relieved as I move away. And yes, I would get mocked because of this.
I like the idea of presenting this as an entertainment from our point of view. My fear is, the NTs would not get it, and think they are not really like that. That being said, go for it, and keep us informed of progress.
