Vindiesel
Well-Known Member
Hello, trying not to write a biography here but may end up that way. (excuse my grammar)
Ill try some bullet points of who I'am based off some potentially bogus self reporting test I have taken.
Mbti: INTJ
Big 5: 95% openness, 80% conscientiousness, extroversion 1%, agreeableness 0%, and neuroticism 10%
Autism quiz: over 90% chance of high function autism diagnosis
Psychmed multiple choice personality disorders quiz: The high ones are 100% schizoid, 90% narcissistic personality disorder and 90% antisocial personality disorder.
So I don't know how much of this is smoke from potentially autism or potentially I have multiple issues driving me.
Im 36 yearsold, Im married and my wife and I are in a polyamorous ethical non-monogomy marriage. I have a girlfriend I have been dating for 2 years and my wife and I have been together in total 10 years. My wife is diagnosed with bpd, anxiety, depression and adhd. My mother has undiagnosed bpd (my wife is a psychologist that works with bpd clients hence why I know this.) I never suffered any abuse. I have been riding motorcycles since I was 8 (10 years dirtbikes and 10 years sportbikes) and modifying cars an adrenaline junky in essence. Never had depression or anxiety or suicidal thoughts. My emotional empathy is 0 my cognitive empathy is extremely sharp. Ive maintained a stable career throughout my life, dozens of intimate relationships and moved from Ohio to nashville tn to greenville sc for work. I have no friends and I chose to have no friends. So I lead a successful life.
So why are you here Vin? seems like you have most of your life figured out.
I want to become a better person but unsure how. I mean I have made it this far with a level of success just because my ideologies/behaviors don't coincide with others or affect them because they haven't been exposed to a person like me is that really my job to match their perceptions or be pliable enough to fake/mask who I am? (see my conflicting thoughts)
Why would I even want to get diagnosed? Were all on a continuum. You have a label well how is that going to help me?
Whatever thoughts or questions you have let me know I wont be offended.
Thanks for reading.
Ill try some bullet points of who I'am based off some potentially bogus self reporting test I have taken.
Mbti: INTJ
Big 5: 95% openness, 80% conscientiousness, extroversion 1%, agreeableness 0%, and neuroticism 10%
Autism quiz: over 90% chance of high function autism diagnosis
Psychmed multiple choice personality disorders quiz: The high ones are 100% schizoid, 90% narcissistic personality disorder and 90% antisocial personality disorder.
So I don't know how much of this is smoke from potentially autism or potentially I have multiple issues driving me.
Im 36 yearsold, Im married and my wife and I are in a polyamorous ethical non-monogomy marriage. I have a girlfriend I have been dating for 2 years and my wife and I have been together in total 10 years. My wife is diagnosed with bpd, anxiety, depression and adhd. My mother has undiagnosed bpd (my wife is a psychologist that works with bpd clients hence why I know this.) I never suffered any abuse. I have been riding motorcycles since I was 8 (10 years dirtbikes and 10 years sportbikes) and modifying cars an adrenaline junky in essence. Never had depression or anxiety or suicidal thoughts. My emotional empathy is 0 my cognitive empathy is extremely sharp. Ive maintained a stable career throughout my life, dozens of intimate relationships and moved from Ohio to nashville tn to greenville sc for work. I have no friends and I chose to have no friends. So I lead a successful life.
So why are you here Vin? seems like you have most of your life figured out.
I want to become a better person but unsure how. I mean I have made it this far with a level of success just because my ideologies/behaviors don't coincide with others or affect them because they haven't been exposed to a person like me is that really my job to match their perceptions or be pliable enough to fake/mask who I am? (see my conflicting thoughts)
Why would I even want to get diagnosed? Were all on a continuum. You have a label well how is that going to help me?
Whatever thoughts or questions you have let me know I wont be offended.
Thanks for reading.
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