SunnyDay16
Well-Known Member
I was born and raised as a Christian. The one main rule I was taught as a child was that if you don't accept Jesus into your heart, you will go to Hell. I wanted to believe I "accepted" him as savior, but I don't feel my heart was ever truly into it. The older I got, the more frustrated and confused I became about it.
I was told many times that God is loving, but I can't understand how any loving god could subject his creations to eteneral torment because they chose not to believe. Humans are humans after all, right? They're going to make mistakes of judgement. I'm told that "God's ways are not our ways" and that I just need to have faith, but how can I have faith if I don't know what to have faith in?
The Bible is full of rules and contradictions that I either don't get or there's so many interpretations for. Trying to look into this further has given me nothing but frustration and irritation. The mixed interpretations about homosexuality are especially vexing because on one hand you have verses flat out telling you homosexuals are going to Hell and should be put to death, then you have people telling you God loves you no matter what yet he wants you to be miserable in heterosexual relationships.
I think leaving Christianity as a whole would keep me from frustrating myself further and just forgetting about the entire faith. I believe nobody should be put down for believing in whatever religion they want and if someone is empowered by Christianity then good for them, but I just can't wrap my head around it all no matter what.
Can anyone really relate to me at all? Or am I just nuts (I don't think I am).
I was told many times that God is loving, but I can't understand how any loving god could subject his creations to eteneral torment because they chose not to believe. Humans are humans after all, right? They're going to make mistakes of judgement. I'm told that "God's ways are not our ways" and that I just need to have faith, but how can I have faith if I don't know what to have faith in?
The Bible is full of rules and contradictions that I either don't get or there's so many interpretations for. Trying to look into this further has given me nothing but frustration and irritation. The mixed interpretations about homosexuality are especially vexing because on one hand you have verses flat out telling you homosexuals are going to Hell and should be put to death, then you have people telling you God loves you no matter what yet he wants you to be miserable in heterosexual relationships.
I think leaving Christianity as a whole would keep me from frustrating myself further and just forgetting about the entire faith. I believe nobody should be put down for believing in whatever religion they want and if someone is empowered by Christianity then good for them, but I just can't wrap my head around it all no matter what.
Can anyone really relate to me at all? Or am I just nuts (I don't think I am).