#### AuroraBorealis

##### Well-Known Member

I feel so, so, so freaking stupid because I can't grasp even the basics of statistics and programming. I need both to some extent for my postgraduate studies, and I've been trying to self-teach myself in it for about 2 years, on-off. It's silly because I know that I'm reasonably smart - I got a medical degree, for Christ's sake. But it feels like as soon as it's about statistics, my brain shuts down. I've been always a quick and consistent learner, and in school I've always been fairly good at math (I really liked it), but only as long as I have a clear algorithm to memorize and to follow, I suppose. I need to understand every single variable and detail in order to be able to memorize and implement something (like in maths or physics). If even one little thing is unclear, the entire thing seems impossible. I haven't been taught statistics properly, since the bit we did at uni was just way too fast. And it doesn't matter how much I read about it and how many tutorials and online course I try, my brain just blocks.

I know it's irrational, but I feel really stupid. I feel like I'm dyslexic but for statistics, if that makes sense. No matter how much I read up on it and try, I just don't get it. It makes absolutely no sense to me. I know I have other talents, but I feel like crap about this right now.

I know some little things by now, but I don't understand them. I read a few statistical things so often that I could recite them if someone asked, but I don't understand a single word. I wouldn't have any idea on how to calculate with them or make sense of them. I'm really having a crisis about this.

Thanks for reading, and sorry for ranting...