Hi Guys,
I suppose I should give a little history about my life before telling you the issue as I feel its important.
I sort of knew I had Aspergers years ago, and I did initiate the psychology process a while ago, but I never really got on with the person I was conversing with so never followed through. Jump to January 2018, after 10 years of suffering a gas-lighter boss, I had a mental breakdown (not that i admitted it at the time). I was off work and did try to return to work but it was mutually felt it was best for me to leave. During my time away, I reached out to psychology again but the waiting list was long and I had to wait. A few month prior to my diagnosis I was forced by the Job centre to work somewhere I knew in my gut that I would never cope with! During my short time employed, i was treated like a child after I mentioned my pre-diganosis of Asperger's syndrome, even though I could take a photocopier apart and rebuild it (the job i had done for more than 20 years prior). I was accused of many things by my fellow employees which I won't go in to just now - all because the environment wasn't right for me, me having Aspergers. When I'm unsettled my Asperger's syndrome worsens either that I was an easy target for them! Usually I can keep myself tightly in check, but ever since my Mental break down I seem to have lost that ability. I left the company after I complained about my treatment, they did 'an extensive investigation' and found no wrong doing. It was strange, as the person who did the investigation was the person involved with the issues.
I was given the formal diagnosis late in 2019 just in time for the pandemic to start hitting. Probably not the best time to get a diagnosis when things in my country shutdown.
My Asperger's effects me socially, I'm very uncomfortable around too many people and don't mind being alone. I feel i may have an air of 'oddness' that people pick up on subconsciously then think I'm weird. Lately this has amplified and the more people think I'm weird the more i become weird. I have limited interests and my main one is computers. I can spend many hours and days on mini projects that other people might find boring or uninteresting. Another thing I tend to do is analyze peoples body language.
Now to the problem, over the last few years people have started to call me someone else name. I took my car in for a service and they said hello James (lets say James as a name its not the name but we'll go with that) The issue is not they called me that name, its how they said it. I told them thats not my name repeatedly, but they'd not let it go. Over the last couple years, people have called me this person name many times. Its just lately it beginning to gain momentum. I went in for food shop ( a already hard situation most of the time) and I get called this name and people in the queue were whispering and saying things under there breath. Went in for fuel, same issue.
I've since did some digging and found a local man who 10 years ago did something bad, the picture of the person is not me( a well know news paper ran the story), I'm 12 years older than this guy, the guy is over 6 feet tall, i'm 5.9, and he's bald, I have loads more hair. It may just be paranoid thinking but I felt the other night I was followed home after leaving a shopping market.
All this is making me more anxious effecting my mental health, i was trying to rebuild my life and soon I start a new part time job. I fear for my safety, and feel that I'm being branded even though I'm not this person and I don't know what to do about it. I just want to be left alone!
I suppose I should give a little history about my life before telling you the issue as I feel its important.
I sort of knew I had Aspergers years ago, and I did initiate the psychology process a while ago, but I never really got on with the person I was conversing with so never followed through. Jump to January 2018, after 10 years of suffering a gas-lighter boss, I had a mental breakdown (not that i admitted it at the time). I was off work and did try to return to work but it was mutually felt it was best for me to leave. During my time away, I reached out to psychology again but the waiting list was long and I had to wait. A few month prior to my diagnosis I was forced by the Job centre to work somewhere I knew in my gut that I would never cope with! During my short time employed, i was treated like a child after I mentioned my pre-diganosis of Asperger's syndrome, even though I could take a photocopier apart and rebuild it (the job i had done for more than 20 years prior). I was accused of many things by my fellow employees which I won't go in to just now - all because the environment wasn't right for me, me having Aspergers. When I'm unsettled my Asperger's syndrome worsens either that I was an easy target for them! Usually I can keep myself tightly in check, but ever since my Mental break down I seem to have lost that ability. I left the company after I complained about my treatment, they did 'an extensive investigation' and found no wrong doing. It was strange, as the person who did the investigation was the person involved with the issues.
I was given the formal diagnosis late in 2019 just in time for the pandemic to start hitting. Probably not the best time to get a diagnosis when things in my country shutdown.
My Asperger's effects me socially, I'm very uncomfortable around too many people and don't mind being alone. I feel i may have an air of 'oddness' that people pick up on subconsciously then think I'm weird. Lately this has amplified and the more people think I'm weird the more i become weird. I have limited interests and my main one is computers. I can spend many hours and days on mini projects that other people might find boring or uninteresting. Another thing I tend to do is analyze peoples body language.
Now to the problem, over the last few years people have started to call me someone else name. I took my car in for a service and they said hello James (lets say James as a name its not the name but we'll go with that) The issue is not they called me that name, its how they said it. I told them thats not my name repeatedly, but they'd not let it go. Over the last couple years, people have called me this person name many times. Its just lately it beginning to gain momentum. I went in for food shop ( a already hard situation most of the time) and I get called this name and people in the queue were whispering and saying things under there breath. Went in for fuel, same issue.
I've since did some digging and found a local man who 10 years ago did something bad, the picture of the person is not me( a well know news paper ran the story), I'm 12 years older than this guy, the guy is over 6 feet tall, i'm 5.9, and he's bald, I have loads more hair. It may just be paranoid thinking but I felt the other night I was followed home after leaving a shopping market.
All this is making me more anxious effecting my mental health, i was trying to rebuild my life and soon I start a new part time job. I fear for my safety, and feel that I'm being branded even though I'm not this person and I don't know what to do about it. I just want to be left alone!
