Newly diagnosed AuDHD burned out with life

[aubrx]

Just as the title describes. Not interested in human society and all the rubbish that comes with humans, can't be bothered with people, normies annoy the crap out of me, humans especially children are too noisy and screechy it's actually ridiculous. I've been alive for 30 years and it seems the burnout of existence in this world dominated by selfish, vapid, egomaniac sheeple humans has now come to fruition.

I have had depression and anxiety for half of my life and recently diagnosed with level two Autism and ADHD (seemingly combined despite not showing many hyperactive traits). Long term SSRI has ruined my brain. I have been off them cold turkey for a week. I am sick of them. Prescribed with Ritalin but it is too stimulating in a short time and lasts only a short amount of time. So I have not taken that recently. I hate that they give me a very strong wave of motivation that lasts maybe an hour and then it plummets and the depression hits.

I used to have dreams and ambition for what I wanted out of life, but ADHD, anxiety, not having money to support those passions, has made most of this impossible and I have just realised how useless dreams (and life) are. I don't have a job and have no desire to work in any job have been there done that and can't be arsed anymore. I am just here to read forum posts.

 

[AuroraBorealis]

Hi, I'm sorry that you're struggling. You're welcome here. If you have any questions, feel free to ask them.

I just wanted to say about the Ritalin: If you're not doing well with your current medication, don't write ADHD medication off too soon. It sounds like your current one is one of the short-lasting ones. There are several different kinds of ADHD medication with different substances and different durations, and it's not unusual to need to try a few different ones until you find one that works best for you and your needs. I'd recommend to talk to your prescribing doctor about that, or to look for another one if you don't feel well at your current one.

 

[aubrx]

Hi, I'm sorry that you're struggling. You're welcome here. If you have any questions, feel free to ask them.

I just wanted to say about the Ritalin: If you're not doing well with your current medication, don't write ADHD medication off too soon. It sounds like your current one is one of the short-lasting ones. There are several different kinds of ADHD medication with different substances and different durations, and it's not unusual to need to try a few different ones until you find one that works best for you and your needs. I'd recommend to talk to your prescribing doctor about that, or to look for another one if you don't feel well at your current one.

I am surprised I was not met with hostility. My views aren't something people tend to like. Regarding the Ritalin, I will absolutely be bringing it up with the psychiatrist.

 

[AuroraBorealis]

I am surprised I was not met with hostility. My views aren't something people tend to like. Regarding the Ritalin, I will absolutely be bringing it up with the psychiatrist.

Welcome among autists. I feel like there's more tolerance, or also simply a tendency to take things as they are, which includes other people's thoughts and feelings. Just because I don't feel the way you do doesn't make your way of feeling wrong. You don't hurt or offend me personally for feeling the way you do. So why be hostile?

I understand finding children annoying. I generally like children, but often find them too loud and screachy, especially in public places. I like working with them 1 on 1 in my job (they're usually not loud then), but struggle to be around noisy children in public places.

 

[Rodafina]

Hello and welcome, @aubrx. Much of what you describe sounds like struggles that many members have shared here on the forum. I hope you can benefit from reading and participating in the threads here.

 

[aubrx]

Welcome among autists. I feel like there's more tolerance, or also simply a tendency to take things as they are, which includes other people's thoughts and feelings. Just because I don't feel the way you do doesn't make your way of feeling wrong. You don't hurt or offend me personally for feeling the way you do. So why be hostile?

I understand finding children annoying. I generally like children, but often find them too loud and screachy, especially in public places. I like working with them 1 on 1 in my job (they're usually not loud then), but struggle to be around noisy children in public places.

I have not met many others on the spectrum. Apart from a partner of a (now ex) friend. We shared a lot of views. However I am used to ridicule for how I think or opinions I hold even though I know the way I feel is not constructive to living in "society". I am not lonely /but/ it is a lonely way to live. People, and humanity as a construct, get on my nerves. Well behaved children are tolerable to a point but require extreme masking from myself to interact with them and it is a big drain.

 

[aubrx]

Hello and welcome, @aubrx. Much of what you describe sounds like struggles that many members have shared here on the forum. I hope you can benefit from reading and participating in the threads here.

I am seeing a bit of that, just by browsing here. It is providing some solace to find others that relate to much of what I feel.

 

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[Xinyta]

Welcome, @aubrx

Humanity does make things hard. What alot of people don't understand with medications, especially SSRIs and the like. Is that they affect different people differently. How one person's body will process a medication, will be vastly different from another person's body.

This is especially the case with us folks on the spectrum. Due to both our bodies and neurology. We are affected far more differently from alot of other people. Sometimes in much more severe ways. Other times, not at all.

All we can do is find what works for us, if there is anything. But the name of the game is balance, to our already hectic worlds. Meds sometimes help. Other times, they will not.

But as far as people. All I can say is that people will be people. Not alot can be done, outside what we govern in our internal sphere of influence. Namely ourselves. Maybe a few aspects of our life, here or there.

 

[blitzkrieg]

I am sorry to hear of your burnout, @aubrx.

Sadly, this is an all too common occurrence for people on the spectrum to experience. Burning out in one's twenties isn't that uncommon for ASD folk. 30 years old seems like a regular age to burn out with ASD.