bigthinker
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Hello world.
Never done anything like this before. Never joined a forum or discussed my thing in an open forum with people I don't know before. Don't know why I'm doing it now other than once again I am sitting here feeling like I've messed up my life again so I'm looking for answers again and this time I found this site.
I'm one of those aspies that to the outside world looks like I am a good guy and looks like I'm confident and have it all together. The truth is I'm lucky I still have a wife (the most understanding, most forgiving person on the planet) I have screwed up or been fired from just about every job I have ever had. Been bankrupted more than once, learned to be a really really good arguer (would make an excellent lawyer if only I had gone to university and studied law (Never did go to college or uni) ) burned just about every bridge I have ever crossed and recently found out because I decided there must be a reason why I keep doing all these things, to demand my doctor refer me to a mental health professional at which point after a bunch of evaluations found out I have Aspergers. I think probably ADD as well. This was good as it finally gave me something I could make sense of but now I'm even more frustrated.
Now I have this thing which I feel I should share but now I feel I know how it feels to be discriminated against. If I tell people, like at work, I feel I am treated differently and I don't like it. Been fired twice in 12 months despite me really trying to be open. I'm just not getting this right. I'm trying and joining this forum is my way of doing this. No expecting anything. Just saying why I'm here. Hello everyone.
Never done anything like this before. Never joined a forum or discussed my thing in an open forum with people I don't know before. Don't know why I'm doing it now other than once again I am sitting here feeling like I've messed up my life again so I'm looking for answers again and this time I found this site.
I'm one of those aspies that to the outside world looks like I am a good guy and looks like I'm confident and have it all together. The truth is I'm lucky I still have a wife (the most understanding, most forgiving person on the planet) I have screwed up or been fired from just about every job I have ever had. Been bankrupted more than once, learned to be a really really good arguer (would make an excellent lawyer if only I had gone to university and studied law (Never did go to college or uni) ) burned just about every bridge I have ever crossed and recently found out because I decided there must be a reason why I keep doing all these things, to demand my doctor refer me to a mental health professional at which point after a bunch of evaluations found out I have Aspergers. I think probably ADD as well. This was good as it finally gave me something I could make sense of but now I'm even more frustrated.
Now I have this thing which I feel I should share but now I feel I know how it feels to be discriminated against. If I tell people, like at work, I feel I am treated differently and I don't like it. Been fired twice in 12 months despite me really trying to be open. I'm just not getting this right. I'm trying and joining this forum is my way of doing this. No expecting anything. Just saying why I'm here. Hello everyone.