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[Kayla55]

I struggled with this my whole life where I'd clock watch on jobs I hated, I'd get anxiety before work, feel free and less confined afterwards. I still get this when I have to do things I don't want to like clean and fix house for inspection, feeling I just want to be left alone and that's reason paid deposit. Now I feel free again and terrible thing is I don't keep office hours working from home so I know I'm partly in la-la land but I really need to do what I'm interested in for moment, that way I am productive in getting results, life not forgiving of this in anyway, esp. if you're not rich and successful.
Watching this video on being late with ADHD and confirms I probably do have it. I suppose blue hair shouts out there is something wrong, I've never really being attention seeking as I like to be a mouse, inconspicuous and go back to my hole where I'm happily doing my own thing.

 

[Kayla55]

 

[Kayla55]

 

[Kayla55]

Ages ago I said something about it's not that face blind to expression, but sometimes overemphasize importance or misinterpret.... Could be ADHD that causes contradiction mentioned in this video....

 

[Kayla55]

I've never really opted for surgery as asexual, I think harassment causes this. Like constant barbadment over sex and how others think about it more often. Finding as teen I wasn't aware of sex but got harassed and bullied when in fact we go to school to learn and many kids seem to be there for social not learning.

The more I get pressured or harassed, it feels as if my life isn't my own and just want to be left alone to focus on my own things, but distractions such as get a job, pay bills and then questioning afterwards of why
Well I'm not alien, I just don't share fascination with genitals and playing with them, I don't like rude jokes,

Watching sci-fi movies it was ok that in future people agreed to be somewhat asexual and humans came from test tubes, of course guy in this video to me is a Neanderthal and crazy hairy monkey type of guy and very loud, opinionated and questionable as type of person who wants to date him, anyway.

Just wish to create awareness that for some of us we don't want to answer questions as to why we always single, no we not depressed or sick.
Not everyone is loud and wanting to openly air all their sexual details, anyway.
What is wrong with people?

 

[SusanLR]

I've been asked so many times through life why I never married.
I didn't want to try explaining and it became very tiring always being asked.
Finally, I came up with a one- line answer that was enough said... "Because I never found another me."

 

[Kayla55]

I've been asked so many times through life why I never married.
I didn't want to try explaining and it became very tiring always being asked.
Finally, I came up with a one- line answer that was enough said... "Because I never found another me."

Seriously nagging can drive anyone insane, but harassing, nagging can eventually get one of us to have strange reactions.
So whilst guys will keep trying, not realising the annoying affect it has on some, like worse than someone repeating my name and calling and calling me.
When you having complications understanding nt way, sex overcomplicate it more, be even more personal than eye contact.
With guys it's like different kind of harassment, constant barbadment as to why you don't chase woman and implied notion that if you don't behave a certain way there's something wrong.

When I was younger less understanding so you lazy or messed up for being late and loosing a job, no excuse there. To certain degree people still inclined to say oh, you look normal so if you don't have physical attribute to show disability then they just don't get it.
I got no sympathy as a mother, honestly one neighbour had visual appearance and never had kids, and I silently cleaned the house and sanded the polyfilla with arthritis -
Maybe I'm just a bit more immuno-deficient so poor modern diet affects me more
On other hand not worth disclosing ones asd status to people who then become weird towards you, judge, look down and like schools inclusion policy basically start treating you like idiot.

 

[SusanLR]

Growing up in a rural community with country gatherings and my mom's church groups, actually there were more women that constantly bombarded me with those types of questions than men. Especially in my teens.

Women would stay in their group and the men in theirs at these gatherings and the women were always asking if I had a boyfriend. No.
Don't you want to get married? No.
Don't you want to have children? No.
Well, you like to make pies, don't you? No.
You get the idea. The Quilting Bee types.

But the question has persisted often through life, regardless of age.
I'm asexual and I don't really want to talk about it with someone who thinks their ultimate goal and purpose in life is marriage, kids and apple pies.