...To start with, I'm homeless, and, to stick to recent-ish timesz have been since getting out of a recovery home in 2018 after the last of the series of toe amputations (which took me from 9&1)2 toes in early 2015 to 4&1/2 now, I had various diabetic infections and couldn:t get treatment that would cure them)...at that time, an inheritance became available to me and I stayed for a while very expensively in a motel, very dick with that water bloating I think I mentioned and perhaps a bit psychologically affected by my brother's sudden death in 2017
and really feeling the torso pain that, off and on in intensity/migrating, I feel much of the time when I'm not lying down flat as I am now.
In this shelter, we're awakened at 5 A.M. and dumped outside in the dark-ish at 6;30 AM or so - I have to go around, or find somewhere to rest (and there's VERY few) during the day till we're brought back.
I had a heart sttack in 2915 and developed congestive heart failure after that, and walk untra-dliwly. It is a large effort to get up from a floor/ground position such as this, my lower body is pretty shot. I have COPD in my lungs and asthma and cough a lot (non+infectious) from the fluid in my lungs. My kidneys have been described as failure stage, with me being told I should expect dialysis soon - Actually,s I was told at one time recently that my kidneys, if they became much worse, could become terminal - Not that they are now, but they could become that - They have, at this point, apparently slightly improved from that - but the " failure)dialysis ' DX remains, I believe. I have to walk around all day or rest somewhere - Many days I have spent the many hours of the day before being dropped off by the shelter and bring brought back entirely in a 1 block-ish radius from the point where we're dropped off - but now the cops are claiming that we're not allowed to hang around there, and give me tickets when I don't leave, summons)citations + This could eventually turn into something bigger.
I'm just to crippled & exausted, I tended to stay in that spot to get needed sleep and some sun on me - What I will do when it starts raining I don't know. There's almost no breakfast offered at the shelter (cereal, coffee, which I don't really drink) - the evening meal is alright, but I need some food during the day and spend too much onbfady/Eslgterns' good - I can't stay in and rest and try to get betterz you have to go out. I can't watch my own YV or something, I can hardly read real books anymore with my lack of prescription glasses and string light, ad I said, I am.incredibly tired (sleepy) & exausted (I guess the kidneys, etc.) do often - and I have to carry a great many things around all day.
If I had a room of my own and some way to set things up I could rebuild from there - I really would have to get some Social Services help in getting something at this point (which would have to have at least some bit of handicapped-suitability) ...if I did, I could access, probably, some of what remains of that inheritance and set myself up and proceed from there, but it's not in any way about to happen now in expensive and full of homeless Santa Cruz, CA. I'm not we'd to staying here forever but I don't know where I could go, I have no likely connections anywhere.
I don't want to die in this situation - I even have some reading and clothes and stuff in storage that I could set up in a new place.
