Soleil
Well-Known Member
I'm in my early 30s and live with my mom. I've never lived on my own, but to be fair neither of us could afford to live alone.
But I don't think I could live alone. I'm fine on some things; I have a job, I can go shopping for things I need, I can pay bills on time, I can do minor home maintenance, I can cook and clean.
But sometimes my anxiety just goes through the roof when I'm alone. Storms aren't always a problem, but if I'm alone, I can't help but freak out. Right now it's almost 5am and I'm alone. Mom had to work overnight and won't be back for a few hours. But normally she's asleep right now, so I'd basically be on my own anyway (I'm usually still up around now). I don't see her much now anyways, because our schedules don't really overlap.
But I'm panicking and I don't know why. It kind of feels like a sensory overload, but there's nothing going on. Instead of feeling overwhelmed by too much noise or lights, I'm overwhelmed by the darkness. But it usually is dark this time of night. The only difference is that it's just me and the cats right now. I turned on some lights, changed my music to something more calming, and hugged a cat, so I feel a little better.
But I feel kind of helpless when this happens. I'm an adult, but I can't live on my own like so many others?
But I don't think I could live alone. I'm fine on some things; I have a job, I can go shopping for things I need, I can pay bills on time, I can do minor home maintenance, I can cook and clean.
But sometimes my anxiety just goes through the roof when I'm alone. Storms aren't always a problem, but if I'm alone, I can't help but freak out. Right now it's almost 5am and I'm alone. Mom had to work overnight and won't be back for a few hours. But normally she's asleep right now, so I'd basically be on my own anyway (I'm usually still up around now). I don't see her much now anyways, because our schedules don't really overlap.
But I'm panicking and I don't know why. It kind of feels like a sensory overload, but there's nothing going on. Instead of feeling overwhelmed by too much noise or lights, I'm overwhelmed by the darkness. But it usually is dark this time of night. The only difference is that it's just me and the cats right now. I turned on some lights, changed my music to something more calming, and hugged a cat, so I feel a little better.
But I feel kind of helpless when this happens. I'm an adult, but I can't live on my own like so many others?