Giving some examples to show what I struggle with in real life:
1. Happy midsummer (In Sweden this is an important day). When people tell me this, on emails or in public, I just process it as a normal word, I don't see what it is (holiday, people take day off from work, they party/plan ...)
My friend called me and asked what my plans were, I said nothing, just a normal day for me. Then he asked, do you want to do what we did last year. Now I started to understand that it's just not as a typical day. But I needed this help to process what the day is really about, going out and having fun in the way you should celebrate the day. He brought it up, not me. He remembered/associated what we did, not me, reason he made the call and not me.
2. Looking at a picture, half of the image a girl is fancy and happy, on the other half she is crying. I don't process anything. I asked a friend, he said, well probably she went out that day, and was dumped by her boyfriend. It doesn't have to be right, but he had an opinion, he saw something, I didn't. He answered the way he looks at the world (he thinks allot about girls/dates). Ok I had to read the text, it was about a girl posing on Instagram, but wanted to show with the other half this is the way I actually feel, masking on Instagram because of the pressure to look happy and fine, like many do.
You see I understand this after I found out, I know how Instagram works, I didn't have to give the right answer, but I'm not able to give any answer, my mind locks, and doesn't process what it sees.
3. I asked my father how his day was going on the phone, he said he and mom worked inside painting the house, finished, and are now to clean the conservatory. After a while for a final question I asked, so what are you going to do now? Clean the conservatory... not realizing the question had already been answered. I needed a direct question for the answer, like I'm on a routine, not processing things if I don't ask specifically. I mean, I did memorize what he said, I did categorize that the house is done and that the conservatory is something extra they wanted to do now, but my brain was not capable of holding it in the air throughout the conversation.
4. When I was a kid, my elder cousin sent me to rent a video game, we wanted to play, and I think he said pick another one if you can't find it. It was already rented, I didn't pick another one, because none looked interesting, instead I picked a film. Once I got back, he didn't like it, and said, how do you know the other games are not good, you haven't played them. He didn't want to watch the film as well. I didn't give his half money back, because I didn't process it correctly, and I don't remember if he asked about them. But this led that he turned against me on another day. I didn't realize that the situation led to that, until I grew older and thought about what happened. What I want to say, I don't connect things just as easy as I feel others do. I just do things without really realizing how the other person would react. My mistakes has consequences and in this case it led to our relationship not being as good as it used to.
I don't know why my encoding process is not working properly, and it's causing social issues for me, lack of small chat capabilities, lack of talking about what I have done, heard, seen, what I have thought about.
I have been told that autistic are excellent with noticing details, I'm not. If I were, I wouldn't have an issue with small chat. Other than this I feel normal, and think normally like all my friends. My sensorimotoric skills are above average, I could play football with closed eyes, and still deliver the perfect pass, or do the perfect tackle. One of my cousins for example is really social, sharps and have done excellent with studies and jobs. But give him a ball, and he would stumble. So I don't know why I'm the one that has autistic traits since 86% with autism has sensorimotoric difficulties. Hence, asking what is wrong with me, as I don't share many autistic traits, as restricted, repetitive patterns of behaviour, interests, or activities/Hyper- or hyporeactivity to sensory input or unusual interests in sensory aspects of the environment.
1. Happy midsummer (In Sweden this is an important day). When people tell me this, on emails or in public, I just process it as a normal word, I don't see what it is (holiday, people take day off from work, they party/plan ...)
My friend called me and asked what my plans were, I said nothing, just a normal day for me. Then he asked, do you want to do what we did last year. Now I started to understand that it's just not as a typical day. But I needed this help to process what the day is really about, going out and having fun in the way you should celebrate the day. He brought it up, not me. He remembered/associated what we did, not me, reason he made the call and not me.
2. Looking at a picture, half of the image a girl is fancy and happy, on the other half she is crying. I don't process anything. I asked a friend, he said, well probably she went out that day, and was dumped by her boyfriend. It doesn't have to be right, but he had an opinion, he saw something, I didn't. He answered the way he looks at the world (he thinks allot about girls/dates). Ok I had to read the text, it was about a girl posing on Instagram, but wanted to show with the other half this is the way I actually feel, masking on Instagram because of the pressure to look happy and fine, like many do.
You see I understand this after I found out, I know how Instagram works, I didn't have to give the right answer, but I'm not able to give any answer, my mind locks, and doesn't process what it sees.
3. I asked my father how his day was going on the phone, he said he and mom worked inside painting the house, finished, and are now to clean the conservatory. After a while for a final question I asked, so what are you going to do now? Clean the conservatory... not realizing the question had already been answered. I needed a direct question for the answer, like I'm on a routine, not processing things if I don't ask specifically. I mean, I did memorize what he said, I did categorize that the house is done and that the conservatory is something extra they wanted to do now, but my brain was not capable of holding it in the air throughout the conversation.
4. When I was a kid, my elder cousin sent me to rent a video game, we wanted to play, and I think he said pick another one if you can't find it. It was already rented, I didn't pick another one, because none looked interesting, instead I picked a film. Once I got back, he didn't like it, and said, how do you know the other games are not good, you haven't played them. He didn't want to watch the film as well. I didn't give his half money back, because I didn't process it correctly, and I don't remember if he asked about them. But this led that he turned against me on another day. I didn't realize that the situation led to that, until I grew older and thought about what happened. What I want to say, I don't connect things just as easy as I feel others do. I just do things without really realizing how the other person would react. My mistakes has consequences and in this case it led to our relationship not being as good as it used to.
I don't know why my encoding process is not working properly, and it's causing social issues for me, lack of small chat capabilities, lack of talking about what I have done, heard, seen, what I have thought about.
I have been told that autistic are excellent with noticing details, I'm not. If I were, I wouldn't have an issue with small chat. Other than this I feel normal, and think normally like all my friends. My sensorimotoric skills are above average, I could play football with closed eyes, and still deliver the perfect pass, or do the perfect tackle. One of my cousins for example is really social, sharps and have done excellent with studies and jobs. But give him a ball, and he would stumble. So I don't know why I'm the one that has autistic traits since 86% with autism has sensorimotoric difficulties. Hence, asking what is wrong with me, as I don't share many autistic traits, as restricted, repetitive patterns of behaviour, interests, or activities/Hyper- or hyporeactivity to sensory input or unusual interests in sensory aspects of the environment.
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