jtab7800
New Member
I'm a little nervous about introducing myself, but here goes...I was diagnosed with Asperger's in 2002, when I was a few days away from my 28th birthday. It was only recently that I found out that in 2013, experts stopped calling it Asperger's, and started referring to it as ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder).
I was on the wrongplanet.net website for a time, but sometimes, I felt like I was on the wrong planet whenever I went to that site...everything just dried up for me there. I hope this place is different. I've been trying for a long time to do things with my life, but it's turning out to be virtually impossible for a guy like me.
I can't get any woman interested in me, online dating has been a nightmare for me, and I'm at a complete loss as to what to do. I live with my mother and brother, and I don't know how to drive, so the only time I can go out anywhere is when my mother drives me. That's why I'd love to learn how to drive. I help my mother take care of my brother, who is in a wheelchair, and is on dialysis. Hopefully, he can get a kidney transplant.
I have a hard time keeping friends once I make them, and the biggest culprit in it is the fact that we've moved around so often, but we've cut down drastically on moving, and I have a few friends that I've known for a while. They also have disabilities.
I've been around people with disabilities since I was 3-years-old. For a time, when I was a kid, I had a friend with Down Syndrome, and I never thought anything bad about it. To me, he was my friend. But when we moved out of state, I never saw him again. Another friend that I had when I was a kid passed away from a severe asthma attack when we were both 12-years-old.
After I was diagnosed, my father started understanding me better, and he didn't get angry at me anymore. After only seven years of enjoying a better relationship with my Dad, that ended when he passed away in 2009. God, I miss him...I'd love to be able to talk with him about some things. I still have my mother and my brother, but they seem more difficult to speak with.
It can definitely be said that my family and I have been through a lot. All I've ever wanted in my life is to actually have a life. I write songs, I do vocals, and I'm learning to play guitar, but I'm still trying to adjust to playing guitar in front of people with my instructor -- it gets slightly better each time.
I hope to turn my songs into something good. Most of what I write is based on my own life experiences, such as a song about my experiences in being bullied for so many years during my school years. Sometimes, I'll be inspired by something else, such as a news story that I read about domestic violence rising sharply since the start of the pandemic, which inspired me to write a song called "Angel with a Broken Heart." It's a song that basically tells people to not let the arms of love become the hands of rage, and to just love and be loved. That's one of the things I want most in my life -- to love and be loved.
Anyway, I'm sorry that this message is so long. I guess I'm a bit detailed -- there are people with autism who can be a lot more detailed than other people. Not too long ago, I decided to give Autism Forums a try. I hope it'll be a safe place for me, and I appreciate that I'm welcomed to the site.
I was on the wrongplanet.net website for a time, but sometimes, I felt like I was on the wrong planet whenever I went to that site...everything just dried up for me there. I hope this place is different. I've been trying for a long time to do things with my life, but it's turning out to be virtually impossible for a guy like me.
I can't get any woman interested in me, online dating has been a nightmare for me, and I'm at a complete loss as to what to do. I live with my mother and brother, and I don't know how to drive, so the only time I can go out anywhere is when my mother drives me. That's why I'd love to learn how to drive. I help my mother take care of my brother, who is in a wheelchair, and is on dialysis. Hopefully, he can get a kidney transplant.
I have a hard time keeping friends once I make them, and the biggest culprit in it is the fact that we've moved around so often, but we've cut down drastically on moving, and I have a few friends that I've known for a while. They also have disabilities.
I've been around people with disabilities since I was 3-years-old. For a time, when I was a kid, I had a friend with Down Syndrome, and I never thought anything bad about it. To me, he was my friend. But when we moved out of state, I never saw him again. Another friend that I had when I was a kid passed away from a severe asthma attack when we were both 12-years-old.
After I was diagnosed, my father started understanding me better, and he didn't get angry at me anymore. After only seven years of enjoying a better relationship with my Dad, that ended when he passed away in 2009. God, I miss him...I'd love to be able to talk with him about some things. I still have my mother and my brother, but they seem more difficult to speak with.
It can definitely be said that my family and I have been through a lot. All I've ever wanted in my life is to actually have a life. I write songs, I do vocals, and I'm learning to play guitar, but I'm still trying to adjust to playing guitar in front of people with my instructor -- it gets slightly better each time.
I hope to turn my songs into something good. Most of what I write is based on my own life experiences, such as a song about my experiences in being bullied for so many years during my school years. Sometimes, I'll be inspired by something else, such as a news story that I read about domestic violence rising sharply since the start of the pandemic, which inspired me to write a song called "Angel with a Broken Heart." It's a song that basically tells people to not let the arms of love become the hands of rage, and to just love and be loved. That's one of the things I want most in my life -- to love and be loved.
Anyway, I'm sorry that this message is so long. I guess I'm a bit detailed -- there are people with autism who can be a lot more detailed than other people. Not too long ago, I decided to give Autism Forums a try. I hope it'll be a safe place for me, and I appreciate that I'm welcomed to the site.
