ProfessorOptics
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Okay, so in my intro I gave a brief outline of what's happening with me right now...
So a week ago, I met my friends gf of 3 weeks. Right from the start, i've been able to communicate with her, and she just... gets me. She understands my challenges, and tries her best to help. She's even taken it upon herself to make sure I get sleep, and stuff, because my sleeping patterns are all over the place. Always have been, and probably always will. Routines don't work for me...
Soon as I realized I was attracted to this girl, I approached my friend and told him. I then told her, and she said she felt the same, but she wants to try things out and see where things lead with my friend. My friend even gave me his blessing that should nothing work out between them, that I can go for it. But right now, I want to give them a chance.
I've tried distancing myself... she doesn't want that, at all. Though she accepts it as being necessary for my sake. She cried when I told her I have to go and leave her alone, telling me she doesn't want me gone. Even my friend told me she loves me and it breaks her heart not having me in her life. I hate that. I hate that I developed a romantic attraction towards her, and I hate that I'm "that guy". I hate that I'm causing so much trouble, and causing pain for her, and him. I honestly don't know what to do in this situation...
"the hard choice is often the right choice" but both choices are equally hard...
I keep getting told to leave her be, distance myself and just "vanish". But I don't want that. At all. So I ended up asking her to be my wingwoman. Then at least, if i can't be with her, she may be able to help me find someone who connects with me the way she did.
Also i should note, though i don't know if i'm just projecting my hopes, but she's not happy with him, and he's not treating her as he should. Yet she's loyal. Perhaps blindly so. She says she's fine, yet I can see it clearer than I see myself. My gut tells me she's not happy. And I can't help feel that my friend is taking her for a ride, leading her on because he doesn't have anyone else. She says she's fine, yet constantly comes to me, telling me things like: he's talking to his ex, he's bragging to his friends that they slept together and all that. Her words says she's fine, but her actions are telling me otherwise, and even if we're not meant to be... I can't help but hold a broken heart seeing her unhappy.
Anyway... I know this aint a dating forum, and i don't intend to make it as such. But nowhere else understands the challenges, and I'm honestly at a loss as to what to do. As to what i want to do.
Sorry for the rant... or story...
So a week ago, I met my friends gf of 3 weeks. Right from the start, i've been able to communicate with her, and she just... gets me. She understands my challenges, and tries her best to help. She's even taken it upon herself to make sure I get sleep, and stuff, because my sleeping patterns are all over the place. Always have been, and probably always will. Routines don't work for me...
Soon as I realized I was attracted to this girl, I approached my friend and told him. I then told her, and she said she felt the same, but she wants to try things out and see where things lead with my friend. My friend even gave me his blessing that should nothing work out between them, that I can go for it. But right now, I want to give them a chance.
I've tried distancing myself... she doesn't want that, at all. Though she accepts it as being necessary for my sake. She cried when I told her I have to go and leave her alone, telling me she doesn't want me gone. Even my friend told me she loves me and it breaks her heart not having me in her life. I hate that. I hate that I developed a romantic attraction towards her, and I hate that I'm "that guy". I hate that I'm causing so much trouble, and causing pain for her, and him. I honestly don't know what to do in this situation...
"the hard choice is often the right choice" but both choices are equally hard...
I keep getting told to leave her be, distance myself and just "vanish". But I don't want that. At all. So I ended up asking her to be my wingwoman. Then at least, if i can't be with her, she may be able to help me find someone who connects with me the way she did.
Also i should note, though i don't know if i'm just projecting my hopes, but she's not happy with him, and he's not treating her as he should. Yet she's loyal. Perhaps blindly so. She says she's fine, yet I can see it clearer than I see myself. My gut tells me she's not happy. And I can't help feel that my friend is taking her for a ride, leading her on because he doesn't have anyone else. She says she's fine, yet constantly comes to me, telling me things like: he's talking to his ex, he's bragging to his friends that they slept together and all that. Her words says she's fine, but her actions are telling me otherwise, and even if we're not meant to be... I can't help but hold a broken heart seeing her unhappy.
Anyway... I know this aint a dating forum, and i don't intend to make it as such. But nowhere else understands the challenges, and I'm honestly at a loss as to what to do. As to what i want to do.
Sorry for the rant... or story...