First, I want to say Thank You (and you, and you too) for this forum. I came here, after having done a self assessment test, just wanting to know more and if I fit in. I do think I fit and I am awed by that.
I've been very lucky as I have had some disclosure with most of my family. They all behaved as I predicted they might but no rejection. This is yet another huge first for me as my mother is very conventional and ridgid in her thinking is ususlly the first to question anything I tell her. We do not usually have a close relationship. It was not advised to tell her anything about my self asessment at all. But, I have this perverse need to just be as I am with her, and I have always told her things I should have kept to myself! Any way, my mother was surprisingly accepting. She did ask me questions but without the patina of judgement or midplaced authority. Now the real trick, to my mind, will be to stop judging her. Stay tuned on that one, I am trying!
Anyway, I am here at my mothers house for a three month vacation from the heat of Mexico. It is not my childhood home but the chotzskies and routines remain the same.
The hard part of all of this is the seemingly endless parade of visitors, outings and the never ending commentary on T.V. shows as I meet my daughter obligations.
And my son. He quit his job just after we arrived and has spent nearly all day, every day here. I love him. We are usually not able to talk often. I do so want to hear what he has to say. But he is a chatter box.
I have been in the habit for quite some time of getting up about 3 a.m. to find a couple of hours where I can just be, by myself. My husband is completely simpatico with my usual routines and habits, but even still, there is little time for me to present "naked" except those early morning hours.
Right now though, I have escaped into the back yard to think about this idea of being on the spectrum. I am not sure if anything really changes, in a mechanical way, in my life. What has changed is how I think about myself. Like others on this forum my main parental unit was ill equiped to be a good parental unit. I've spent a good deal of my life believing a lintany of misplaced accusations and a certain knowledge that I was just too flawed and "hard to love".
And then I found out the truth. I am normal. Right now I am a little maudlin as befits my energy level, but I am not "mellow dramatic" thank you very much!
I think I had better stop here or I will start singing "Eye of the Tiger". (I really have no idea why that came to mind)
Saludos!
I've been very lucky as I have had some disclosure with most of my family. They all behaved as I predicted they might but no rejection. This is yet another huge first for me as my mother is very conventional and ridgid in her thinking is ususlly the first to question anything I tell her. We do not usually have a close relationship. It was not advised to tell her anything about my self asessment at all. But, I have this perverse need to just be as I am with her, and I have always told her things I should have kept to myself! Any way, my mother was surprisingly accepting. She did ask me questions but without the patina of judgement or midplaced authority. Now the real trick, to my mind, will be to stop judging her. Stay tuned on that one, I am trying!
Anyway, I am here at my mothers house for a three month vacation from the heat of Mexico. It is not my childhood home but the chotzskies and routines remain the same.
The hard part of all of this is the seemingly endless parade of visitors, outings and the never ending commentary on T.V. shows as I meet my daughter obligations.
And my son. He quit his job just after we arrived and has spent nearly all day, every day here. I love him. We are usually not able to talk often. I do so want to hear what he has to say. But he is a chatter box.
I have been in the habit for quite some time of getting up about 3 a.m. to find a couple of hours where I can just be, by myself. My husband is completely simpatico with my usual routines and habits, but even still, there is little time for me to present "naked" except those early morning hours.
Right now though, I have escaped into the back yard to think about this idea of being on the spectrum. I am not sure if anything really changes, in a mechanical way, in my life. What has changed is how I think about myself. Like others on this forum my main parental unit was ill equiped to be a good parental unit. I've spent a good deal of my life believing a lintany of misplaced accusations and a certain knowledge that I was just too flawed and "hard to love".
And then I found out the truth. I am normal. Right now I am a little maudlin as befits my energy level, but I am not "mellow dramatic" thank you very much!
I think I had better stop here or I will start singing "Eye of the Tiger". (I really have no idea why that came to mind)
Saludos!