Trophonius
Well-Known Member
Hello. I've lurked this forums anonymously for the past weeks until I registered days ago. I'm not entirely sure how to make an introduction for myself, because I believe a brief intro will not be as complete as I wish, and a long will likely go unread. So here's two intros for you:
#1 Brief version
I considered the possibility of being on the spectrum 12 years ago while I was in high school. Not having a proper understanding of it, I think I had, then and in the years that followed, a sort of hollywood-romantic idea of it.
I forgot about until lately, when I started seeing a psychologist due to my social anxiety. During our second or third session she told me I might be in the autistic spectrum. Now, two months later since starting therapy, she told me she's pretty sure and wants to give me some questionnaires, which she will next week.
Now, I don't know exactly what to make of all this, or what to do with the diagnoses.
#2 Long version - if you are REALLY bored
Since I've started to seriously consider the possibility of being somewhere in the ASD, I'm doing my best to remember elements of my childhood that could give me some answers.
This is some characteristics about me I've been thinking of
1. Not having any social behavior. This applied when I was a child, and barely had a few friends in my 27 years. I haven't had friends since age 16.
2. Also no girlfriend, not even close, ever.
3. Apparently my parents had to " fight " with me to change my clothes when I was a child (for example didn't want to use summer clothes after being used to winter clothes).
4. I've been having problems to carry social interactions. Now, being fairly old, I cannot avoid some social situations and I don't know how to behave.
5. According to my psychologist, I have "limited" interests, though I disagree since they are not that limited.
6. My voice sucks, I'm pretty sure I speak like a robot, in a soft and almost inaudible voice, and very fast.
7. Not sure, but I in the past months I realized I rarely look at the eyes of a person when they speak, and focus on the mouth for whatever reason. I'm consciously trying to change this.
BUT against the ASD hypothesis I consider
1. I don't have problems with sarcasm.
2. I did play pretending games as a kid (age 9, 10 and 11).
3. Didn't collect more things that my peers.
4. Not sure if anything I liked could be considered a special interest.
I don't feel good about this. If it turns out that I am not on the spectrum, I know I will be disappointed; but if I am, I will find myself more alone because I feel I don't exactly fit with ASD-people either.
#1 Brief version
I considered the possibility of being on the spectrum 12 years ago while I was in high school. Not having a proper understanding of it, I think I had, then and in the years that followed, a sort of hollywood-romantic idea of it.
I forgot about until lately, when I started seeing a psychologist due to my social anxiety. During our second or third session she told me I might be in the autistic spectrum. Now, two months later since starting therapy, she told me she's pretty sure and wants to give me some questionnaires, which she will next week.
Now, I don't know exactly what to make of all this, or what to do with the diagnoses.
#2 Long version - if you are REALLY bored
Since I've started to seriously consider the possibility of being somewhere in the ASD, I'm doing my best to remember elements of my childhood that could give me some answers.
This is some characteristics about me I've been thinking of
1. Not having any social behavior. This applied when I was a child, and barely had a few friends in my 27 years. I haven't had friends since age 16.
2. Also no girlfriend, not even close, ever.
3. Apparently my parents had to " fight " with me to change my clothes when I was a child (for example didn't want to use summer clothes after being used to winter clothes).
4. I've been having problems to carry social interactions. Now, being fairly old, I cannot avoid some social situations and I don't know how to behave.
5. According to my psychologist, I have "limited" interests, though I disagree since they are not that limited.
6. My voice sucks, I'm pretty sure I speak like a robot, in a soft and almost inaudible voice, and very fast.
7. Not sure, but I in the past months I realized I rarely look at the eyes of a person when they speak, and focus on the mouth for whatever reason. I'm consciously trying to change this.
BUT against the ASD hypothesis I consider
1. I don't have problems with sarcasm.
2. I did play pretending games as a kid (age 9, 10 and 11).
3. Didn't collect more things that my peers.
4. Not sure if anything I liked could be considered a special interest.
I don't feel good about this. If it turns out that I am not on the spectrum, I know I will be disappointed; but if I am, I will find myself more alone because I feel I don't exactly fit with ASD-people either.