I feel like a loser.

[Markness]

I know it’s not a healthy way to think but I really do feel like a loser. It doesn’t help that is what I was often called by other people in my teens. I know people at work who are much younger than me, one who is also on the spectrum, who already have graduated college/university, are in long term relationships, and aren’t bullied by their family members. I have lived for almost four decades but I don’t have my life in order at all.

Just coming up with a paragraph feels like a challenge to me. A lot of it is due to not getting enough sleep so my mental faculties aren’t at their best and I am having flashbacks to when I first became clinically depressed in 2005. That was twenty years ago and I wouldn’t wish the intense feelings of despair I’ve had to deal with on even my worst enemy.

 

[Aspychata]

You are gainfully employed, and have been for sometime. That's success. l wish l had your employment history. You have provided a very valuable service keeping your library alive and a valuable part of society. You have a good relationship with your mother, and you on occasion , leave for interesting concerts, etc. If you only judge yourself on relationships, l don't believe that's a true parameter to judge yourself on. To me, successful employment is a true factor of success. Sadly, a lot much of America is homeless, and living in their cars. I hope this doesn't sound too harsh.

 

[Fredan]

You're more successful than I am, and I don't think I am a loser, so you are definitely not.

Losers are not those who struggle due to a condition/disability, but rather those that put people down because of it.