Decemberwyatt
New Member
Hey there,
I figure if I’m introducing myself, I might as well explain some of the backstory as to why + a little about me.
I’m 22, was not officially diagnosed until I was 19 (High Functioning Autism) although my parents, throughout my childhood, were convinced I had Sensory Processing Disorder. Naturally, being uninformed and not wanting to to have the term “disorder” applied to myself, I considered myself fairly normal (although I had doubts from time to time).
Lately, I’ve felt that those around me have had a difficult time understanding my needs given my differences from them. Given I work with a supervisor who is my ex and 8 years my senior (all I am willing to disclose out of respect for her) it’s been difficult to manage my emotions/interact with her as necessitated by the job. Given I’ve only recently come to embrace my diagnosis after disavowing it intially purely to ignorance, she wasn’t aware of it until after things had ended.
Largely because I’ve masked most of my life, which while may have worked for certain social situations, also cost me much torment in my life in the process. Beyond just this situation as well, as a similar one is what led to me receiving a diagnosis in the first place, along with a host of other things I won’t get into today.
This entire process of self-realization (and acceptance) has, while improved my well-being, also made me feel slightly more distanced from those I interact with because of how unaware/uninformed they are about what things are like from my perspective. Since I’m rarely the best communicator through verbal means, it’s not exactly easy to have that conversation either.
I wanted to hear from and communicate with others who can better understand things from a shared perspective and generally to feel some kinship from people who may intuitively know the same overwhelming shutdown when faced with certain situations, or the obsessive interest in a particular subject (in my case, this is largely music, will talk about it with anyone and listen to just about any genre).
TL;DR
Konichawa Amigos
I figure if I’m introducing myself, I might as well explain some of the backstory as to why + a little about me.
I’m 22, was not officially diagnosed until I was 19 (High Functioning Autism) although my parents, throughout my childhood, were convinced I had Sensory Processing Disorder. Naturally, being uninformed and not wanting to to have the term “disorder” applied to myself, I considered myself fairly normal (although I had doubts from time to time).
Lately, I’ve felt that those around me have had a difficult time understanding my needs given my differences from them. Given I work with a supervisor who is my ex and 8 years my senior (all I am willing to disclose out of respect for her) it’s been difficult to manage my emotions/interact with her as necessitated by the job. Given I’ve only recently come to embrace my diagnosis after disavowing it intially purely to ignorance, she wasn’t aware of it until after things had ended.
Largely because I’ve masked most of my life, which while may have worked for certain social situations, also cost me much torment in my life in the process. Beyond just this situation as well, as a similar one is what led to me receiving a diagnosis in the first place, along with a host of other things I won’t get into today.
This entire process of self-realization (and acceptance) has, while improved my well-being, also made me feel slightly more distanced from those I interact with because of how unaware/uninformed they are about what things are like from my perspective. Since I’m rarely the best communicator through verbal means, it’s not exactly easy to have that conversation either.
I wanted to hear from and communicate with others who can better understand things from a shared perspective and generally to feel some kinship from people who may intuitively know the same overwhelming shutdown when faced with certain situations, or the obsessive interest in a particular subject (in my case, this is largely music, will talk about it with anyone and listen to just about any genre).
TL;DR
Konichawa Amigos