My resentments run extremely deep. I find myself praying that horrible things will happen to the people who sexually abused me when I was a young child, every single night. My family wants me to let these people off the hook for my own sake, whatever the hell that means. My 12 step sponsor is telling me the same thing - to forgive what can never be forgiven or forgotten about.
These people are still free and will never be held accountable for their actions due to statues of limitations and my entire family’s denial that they ever did anything wrong to begin with. And that is leaving me feeling nothing but an ocean of resentment within an even vaster spiritual void.
I gave up beer recently, so I am really feeling all of this right this very second. Merely escaping into video gaming is doing nothing for me now. How could God let these people do what they do and walk free, I often wonder. I hate my life passionately.
These people are still free and will never be held accountable for their actions due to statues of limitations and my entire family’s denial that they ever did anything wrong to begin with. And that is leaving me feeling nothing but an ocean of resentment within an even vaster spiritual void.
I gave up beer recently, so I am really feeling all of this right this very second. Merely escaping into video gaming is doing nothing for me now. How could God let these people do what they do and walk free, I often wonder. I hate my life passionately.