Samuel Deboni
New Member
Hi, I'm 20 and I think that maybe I have Asperger, but I'm not sure.
First I like to say that I have difficulties communicating with text, I think too much if the what I'm writing is correct and how other people will perceive, so It's takes a long time for me to write even a small email. And the fact that English isn't my first language makes this even harder, but I'm doing my best here.
Everything started when I saw a youtube video from the channel Asperger from the inside with the title "Are You Autistic? 25 Questions To Ask Yourself!", and I started to think that maybe I am autistic. After that I started to research about the topic and I discovered the AQ test, my score was 37 but It was late and I decided to do it again in the next day and my score was 34, that was 2 weeks ago and today I did it again ans my score was 39.
I'm being think a lot, I'm looking back to my childhood and analysing my behavior, and the more I do the more I find myself in the spectrum.
I always had issues with food, mainly with the texture, but also smell and looks. I don't like to mix food, everything in my plate has to be separate. I don't like onions nor garlic, I cannot stand the smell of potato salad nor vinegar. I can't eat cold food, except for food that is supposed to be cold, like ice cream. I don't eat that much because hunger usually doesn't bother me.
I never liked to wear hats, and when for a time I decided to wear one to university, because my hair was to messy, I got headaches and I stoped wearing hats. I cut the tags of all my shirts, and I thought that everyone did the same thing, and thinking why it was on there the first place, since it would be cut.
I don't like loud places, but I can tolerate it for some time.
I don't like bright lights, but is I can tolerate it for some time.
I'm always fidgeting or taping, and when my hands are occupied I start to move my feet.
And the big thing is my lack social skills. I can have conversations with people that I already know, but when I'm in big groups I find harder to know what to say but I usually manage, even when managing mean not talking at all, just being there. But when I have to talk to someone that I don't already know things get really hard, when I was younger I could not even do simple things like getting something with the neighbor for my mom. I always thought that I was shy, but that didn't make sense because I'm not shy with my friends, I actually can talk quite a lot about thing that interest me. Then I started to think that maybe was social anxiety, but I never considered autism.
Now everything is making more sense, even that feeling of being strange or different, but somehow still I'm not sure that I have autism, I'm think I am gonna try to get a official diagnoses. And I think that for the time being, sharing with the community will help me to figure out some things.
First I like to say that I have difficulties communicating with text, I think too much if the what I'm writing is correct and how other people will perceive, so It's takes a long time for me to write even a small email. And the fact that English isn't my first language makes this even harder, but I'm doing my best here.
Everything started when I saw a youtube video from the channel Asperger from the inside with the title "Are You Autistic? 25 Questions To Ask Yourself!", and I started to think that maybe I am autistic. After that I started to research about the topic and I discovered the AQ test, my score was 37 but It was late and I decided to do it again in the next day and my score was 34, that was 2 weeks ago and today I did it again ans my score was 39.
I'm being think a lot, I'm looking back to my childhood and analysing my behavior, and the more I do the more I find myself in the spectrum.
I always had issues with food, mainly with the texture, but also smell and looks. I don't like to mix food, everything in my plate has to be separate. I don't like onions nor garlic, I cannot stand the smell of potato salad nor vinegar. I can't eat cold food, except for food that is supposed to be cold, like ice cream. I don't eat that much because hunger usually doesn't bother me.
I never liked to wear hats, and when for a time I decided to wear one to university, because my hair was to messy, I got headaches and I stoped wearing hats. I cut the tags of all my shirts, and I thought that everyone did the same thing, and thinking why it was on there the first place, since it would be cut.
I don't like loud places, but I can tolerate it for some time.
I don't like bright lights, but is I can tolerate it for some time.
I'm always fidgeting or taping, and when my hands are occupied I start to move my feet.
And the big thing is my lack social skills. I can have conversations with people that I already know, but when I'm in big groups I find harder to know what to say but I usually manage, even when managing mean not talking at all, just being there. But when I have to talk to someone that I don't already know things get really hard, when I was younger I could not even do simple things like getting something with the neighbor for my mom. I always thought that I was shy, but that didn't make sense because I'm not shy with my friends, I actually can talk quite a lot about thing that interest me. Then I started to think that maybe was social anxiety, but I never considered autism.
Now everything is making more sense, even that feeling of being strange or different, but somehow still I'm not sure that I have autism, I'm think I am gonna try to get a official diagnoses. And I think that for the time being, sharing with the community will help me to figure out some things.
