Nemesis_2k7
Nemesis2k7
I am usually a withdrawn and depressed person who is terrified of the outside world. And i usually rely on alcohol to fill that void, and assist me in the confidence to do things. I have realized these last 12 months, no more alcohol. I was also using marijuana as an escape tool, and i already am sober off that now, for gee, a few months. I am not really counting. I am an estranged dad. from my 2 daughters. Partly due to my meltdowns, and abuse, and inner anger and no self confidence, and partly to my drug / alcohol / nicotine use (abuse). Now that those things are out of my life, i see things clearer. And i am willing to place the blame on myself for the things i have done. And the damage i have caused. Now, i have made contact with my ex girlfriend, and the next step is, talking with my 2 daughters. I hope they will be OK talking with me. I have been out of their lives for almost a year now. Time for a change. Sure, I might be scared stiff of people, and scared stiff of the outside world. But i will manage. And i will do it drug and alcohol free.