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Neko

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Hey all,

My name is Niko. You can call me Niko or Neko if you like.

I’ve been traumatized for the past 30 years, but I finally broke through the worst of that a few weeks ago. Now I’m trying to figure out how life works for a non traumatized person, basically by myself.

I quickly learned I have ASD. People have mentioned it before but I was too traumatized to notice. Now it is beyond clear that I am and I need some help figuring out life. I’m just waiting for official confirmation from my psychiatrist next week.

30 years of trauma is difficult beyond words, PTSD and autism… I’m not sure how to get through this but I’m just trying to take one day at a time.

What I need most of all is some friends, or at least some people like me to chat with. I’m lonely and it’s difficult changing the way I speak for everyone to make them more comfortable.

I hope there’s some people here I can chat with.
 
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Welcome! Please do post how you recovered from PTSD because there are many long term sufferers on here.....
 
Thanks OkRad,

Trauma is not an easy subject to talk about or even recover from. To be clear, I have not recovered from PTSD (i.e. I still have a stress disorder), however I am no longer actively traumatized.

Breaking trauma is very dangerous without a good support system in place. I've been to the emergency room at the hospital 3 times in the last week and a half, as it is extremely challenging to figure out a brand new life at my age, and even more confusing with how my autistic mind works on top of that.

I wasn't expecting it, but it worked for me just like I saw in a movie. I unexpectedly experienced a situation similar to my original trauma, in which I felt safe and loved the entire time. That was enough to teach my mind that things are okay, and I'm actually not about to die next.

I wish everyone suffering from trauma all the best, I've lived that life for over 30 years and it is torture. I hope as many people as possible recover, but carefully. It is much more difficult breaking free from trauma than to stay living in it.
 
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Welcome, Neko. I think that trauma, especially the complex trauma experienced by those of us with ASD, shares features of PTSD. For me it was the social and sexual isolation/rejection as a teen and young adult. Getting counseling about that now.

I think you will find this community very accepting.
 
I absolutely agree; they have so much in common!

I'm sorry to hear you've been through that isolation and rejection, and I hope you overcome it soon!

Thanks for the positivity about the community. I'm certainly hoping to find a good one as I was banned from my CPTSD community shortly after breaking through my trauma. :(
 
Hi and welcome, that's great progress! It's good that you are here, certainly. Autism does seem to make our communication somewhat different, and that can be hard for neurotypical people to understand. I hope you enjoy it here and find it useful and supportive.

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Welcome Niko.

A lot of us here have or have been through trauma and PTSD.
It is encouraging to see you've made this progress through the many years.
I knew nothing about ASD until eight years ago when I suffered a trauma.
My counselor thought I was what she called at that time Aspergers and encouraged me to see
a specialist.

I got official diagnosis.
The two combined makes it even the more difficult to work with.
I am not young and I feel I will never get past it.
It affected me physically also, so I don't think I have 30 years to get past it.
Congratulations on your progress!

And there are a lot of different subjects to explore and discuss here. Hope you enjoy it.
 
Welcome.
Congrats on getting to a better place.
This site has helped me with acknowledging the amount of emotional issues l carry under my car hood. Now l feel more alert.
 
Hi @Neko and welcome to the forum. The people on this forum has been a tremendous help to me. I am confident you will find comfort here as well. I also look forward to your input.

Since early childhood, I have experienced almost perpetual anxiety and PTSD. It has only been in the last few years that I am beginning to figure out how to manage or live with it. I have resolved that it is a permanent part of me. But that is more of a relief than a "doom and gloom". I don't think it is curable, but it is manageable.

What I have learned is how to make it livable by learning all the triggers and avoid them with the intensity of the anxiety or PTSD level. I quit a job that required me to interface directly with customers. The anxiety built to catastrophic levels and I had to quit. I now know that I can't have a job like that. With that knowledge, all my jobs since then were conducted in a private room where I could work uninterrupted - it was like heaven.

My PTSD started when I was single-digit young. It's not a secret, but I can't describe the cause because it is far too painful. I can only say that the trigger is country and western music or anything involving cowboys or cowboy life. Therefore, I have learned to avoid anything that even hints to that subject and I have been quite successful with that for the past few years.

The best illustration of the intensity of my PTSD attacks is played out in the movie, Welcome to Marwen. The movie is all about PTSD and is a true story. (WARNING: the following youtube scene involves war type action. I don't know what your PTSD is or it's triggers, but if it involves war violence don't watch!) Here is the youtube scene from the move that is an almost exact match of how my C&W trigger affects me. The scene is where Mark is in a court room where his attackers are being charged.

No, I do not have any therapy props. I just don't allow myself in that environment. If there is ever a surprise encounter, I bolt just as Mark did in that scene. Then it takes at least a week to get over it. Fortunately, it has been a few years since any triggers.
 
Neko said:
Hey all,

My name is Niko. You can call me Niko or Neko if you like.

I’ve been traumatized for the past 30 years, but I finally broke through the worst of that a few weeks ago. Now I’m trying to figure out how life works for a non traumatized person, basically by myself.

I quickly learned I have ASD. People have mentioned it before but I was too traumatized to notice. Now it is beyond clear that I am and I need some help figuring out life. I’m just waiting for official confirmation from my psychiatrist next week.

30 years of trauma is difficult beyond words, PTSD and autism… I’m not sure how to get through this but I’m just trying to take one day at a time.

What I need most of all is some friends, or at least some people like me to chat with. I’m lonely and it’s difficult changing the way I speak for everyone to make them more comfortable.

I hope there’s some people here I can chat with.
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I'm here. Let's see if we get along. :)
 
Hey guys.

I was writing as much as I could about my experience healing from trauma on another forum dedicated to trauma because I wanted to help others get through it.

Then they banned me, apparently they felt it was dangerous… which it is. The way I see it is you can live safely in trauma or fight through hell to heal and live a proper life; I chose the latter.

What kinds of things do you guys want to read about? I’m happy to try to help others based on my own experience but I don’t want to get banned here too.
 
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