Hi
This is my first time on a forum and so I'm not sure how all of this is supposed to work. I was diagnosed with Asperger syndrome just a few weeks ago and I've been trying to come to terms with it ever since. The big question for me was do I really have this? There are a lot of things in the spectrum of Asperger that I know I have. Being repetitive, having big troubles in social situations, and stimming, a lot of stimming. I mask a lot of my symptoms when I’m around others, so I’m quiet and don’t talk. When I’m not around anyone I have times when I overload and have a meltdown, my mom has seen these meltdowns, so she knows what I’m talking about. There are other things that I don’t have issues with like eye contact and being able to sympathize with others. This is made it hard for me to know for sure if I actually have this or if I’m just this odd socially awkward 25-year-old. I’ve always said the world is to raw for me, the sensory stimulus of the outside world is hard to deal with for me. I only like to be touched when I’m doing the touching, and loud noises are too much for me sometimes. I have times when I shutdown and can’t handle anything, everything hurts in those times. I know I’m high functioning but I’m not really living a good life. I still live at home, don’t have a job, and I refuse to learn to drive. That being said I have written five full length books and I have created a whole other world for me to live in because this one is so hard and raw for me.
I’m also gay, have gender dysphoria, and I have emetophobia (google it if you don’t know what that is). There are a lot of things that makes me different than others around me and learning that I have aspersers does make sense to me. But I’d like to know what you guys think.
This is my first time on a forum and so I'm not sure how all of this is supposed to work. I was diagnosed with Asperger syndrome just a few weeks ago and I've been trying to come to terms with it ever since. The big question for me was do I really have this? There are a lot of things in the spectrum of Asperger that I know I have. Being repetitive, having big troubles in social situations, and stimming, a lot of stimming. I mask a lot of my symptoms when I’m around others, so I’m quiet and don’t talk. When I’m not around anyone I have times when I overload and have a meltdown, my mom has seen these meltdowns, so she knows what I’m talking about. There are other things that I don’t have issues with like eye contact and being able to sympathize with others. This is made it hard for me to know for sure if I actually have this or if I’m just this odd socially awkward 25-year-old. I’ve always said the world is to raw for me, the sensory stimulus of the outside world is hard to deal with for me. I only like to be touched when I’m doing the touching, and loud noises are too much for me sometimes. I have times when I shutdown and can’t handle anything, everything hurts in those times. I know I’m high functioning but I’m not really living a good life. I still live at home, don’t have a job, and I refuse to learn to drive. That being said I have written five full length books and I have created a whole other world for me to live in because this one is so hard and raw for me.
I’m also gay, have gender dysphoria, and I have emetophobia (google it if you don’t know what that is). There are a lot of things that makes me different than others around me and learning that I have aspersers does make sense to me. But I’d like to know what you guys think.
