oceanical
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hi everyone.
Im undiagnosed but I’m pretty sure I’m both on the spectrum and an ADHDer. I’m also a very queer person.
I live with my dad and my younger brother, who I also suspect are on the spectrum and are ADHDers.
I started investigating about autism around five years ago, but it wasn’t until I started to listen to afab autistics that also have adhd a few months ago that I finally relate to someone… like never before!
Im going through a rough time tbh
I should have already finished university, but I’m stuck with it for two more years… and I don’t even know if I’ll ever use my degree. I continue mostly because it’s what my dad wants. I live in his home and I depend on him.
This really frustrates me. I hate being a burden to him. I need to start making money and help more, and I’ve tried several times, but with each fail (both at making money and with my studies) my mental health has been going down, and it wasn’t as good to begin with. I grew up depressed, anxious and alone. I haven’t really had access to mental health services and my dad doesn’t really believe in it, he thinks it is all on me to “decide to get better and do the stuff that needs to be done” or something. Even if he believed in therapy, medication, etc, we have no access to it, we can’t afford it.
Our house is a mess. Our lives are a mess. We are a mess, and my dad just says that it is the way that it is, he sees it almost as a family curse, what makes total sense, I’m sure a lot of his family was/is neurodiverse too.
Very recently he has started to accept this possibility, opening up and telling me about his social struggles though his life.
He is getting old but he still has to work to sustain us, and it is getting more and more difficult for him to make money.
I feel desperate. I don’t know where to begin and I feel very alone.
Sorry to start this way, I really wanted to tell someone what I’m going though
Im undiagnosed but I’m pretty sure I’m both on the spectrum and an ADHDer. I’m also a very queer person.
I live with my dad and my younger brother, who I also suspect are on the spectrum and are ADHDers.
I started investigating about autism around five years ago, but it wasn’t until I started to listen to afab autistics that also have adhd a few months ago that I finally relate to someone… like never before!
Im going through a rough time tbh
I should have already finished university, but I’m stuck with it for two more years… and I don’t even know if I’ll ever use my degree. I continue mostly because it’s what my dad wants. I live in his home and I depend on him.
This really frustrates me. I hate being a burden to him. I need to start making money and help more, and I’ve tried several times, but with each fail (both at making money and with my studies) my mental health has been going down, and it wasn’t as good to begin with. I grew up depressed, anxious and alone. I haven’t really had access to mental health services and my dad doesn’t really believe in it, he thinks it is all on me to “decide to get better and do the stuff that needs to be done” or something. Even if he believed in therapy, medication, etc, we have no access to it, we can’t afford it.
Our house is a mess. Our lives are a mess. We are a mess, and my dad just says that it is the way that it is, he sees it almost as a family curse, what makes total sense, I’m sure a lot of his family was/is neurodiverse too.
Very recently he has started to accept this possibility, opening up and telling me about his social struggles though his life.
He is getting old but he still has to work to sustain us, and it is getting more and more difficult for him to make money.
I feel desperate. I don’t know where to begin and I feel very alone.
Sorry to start this way, I really wanted to tell someone what I’m going though