It has been one long hard road to finally find my way here. I was diagnosed with ADHD- inattentive type about 2 years ago, and thought that was the *one* revelation that explained the rough ride to age 41. I think falling somewhere on the spectrum explains the rest, and in a much more significant way than ADHD.
I knew I had terrible social skills as a young child, even as a young child. But I thought I had "outgrown" much of the shyness and awkwardness that was blatantly obvious back in the day. Recently, I have realized that I was totally kidding myself.
I seem to raise suspicion, and often am called a liar. I also seem to be seen as "not the brightest bulb" while simultaneously finding society and the majority of it's members just plain stupid. I honestly do not know where my strengths and weaknesses end and begin. I am in the early stages of figuring this out, although I have suspected it for quite some time.
I am yet to be officially diagnosed because my psychiatrist has headed off in all sorts of crazy directions. To muddy up the waters some, I find my Dr's description of Sluggish Cognitive Tempo to be spot on. But I also am awaiting a sleep study to test for narcolepsy.
I have a history of verbal and emotional abuse and manipulations, so much so that I can also apparently not be able to tell when someone is being slightly rude vs. outright disrespectful. And then this apparently can also lead suspicious minds to think I tolerate said disrespect, etc because I am indeed guilty of whatever they imagine. Anyone else have this problem? Or any of these problems?
Also, I am familiar with the current types of ASD in the DSM, but when one is diagnosed officially, are you made aware of where your brain may be excelling and where your brain might be out for lunch? I feel like I must have a higher IQ in some ways, but am so confused if I know as much as I think I know. Anyone else feel this way?
I knew I had terrible social skills as a young child, even as a young child. But I thought I had "outgrown" much of the shyness and awkwardness that was blatantly obvious back in the day. Recently, I have realized that I was totally kidding myself.
I seem to raise suspicion, and often am called a liar. I also seem to be seen as "not the brightest bulb" while simultaneously finding society and the majority of it's members just plain stupid. I honestly do not know where my strengths and weaknesses end and begin. I am in the early stages of figuring this out, although I have suspected it for quite some time.
I am yet to be officially diagnosed because my psychiatrist has headed off in all sorts of crazy directions. To muddy up the waters some, I find my Dr's description of Sluggish Cognitive Tempo to be spot on. But I also am awaiting a sleep study to test for narcolepsy.
I have a history of verbal and emotional abuse and manipulations, so much so that I can also apparently not be able to tell when someone is being slightly rude vs. outright disrespectful. And then this apparently can also lead suspicious minds to think I tolerate said disrespect, etc because I am indeed guilty of whatever they imagine. Anyone else have this problem? Or any of these problems?
Also, I am familiar with the current types of ASD in the DSM, but when one is diagnosed officially, are you made aware of where your brain may be excelling and where your brain might be out for lunch? I feel like I must have a higher IQ in some ways, but am so confused if I know as much as I think I know. Anyone else feel this way?