Hello everyone, I'm not exactly a new member here but it's been a long time since I last posted so I figured that I'd re-introduce myself and start fresh. Forgive me if posting a second introduction thread isn't allowed.
I originally joined this site when it was called AspiesCentral at a very cringe-worthy point in my life. I was very socially inept (much more so than I am now), failing at a commuter school whose commute was mental torture, and suffering through contact with an incredibly abusive, manipulative, and narcissistic mother.
I made a number of radical but necessary changes in my life, including transferring colleges and living on campus, going no-contact with mom for the sake of my sanity, and somehow making a precious few good IRL friends and integrating myself into their friend group. I've said before that I don't ask to be "big man on campus", just one of the guys, and with these people I feel I've achieved that. The only downside is that their work schedules make it so that we hang out far too seldom.
The past several years have not been without struggles, however. In summer of 2018 I suffered a crippling nervous breakdown which resulted in a traumatic, two-week inpatient stay at a mental hospital and a useless amateur shrink there misdiagnosing me with Bipolar I "with psychotic features". While I fully admit to having mental health issues, namely PTSD and major depressive disorder (not to mention Asperger's, which is kinda why I'm on this forum in the first place), I do not consider myself a psychopath, and resent the association with the label. I had to take a semester off college and endured a long depressive episode that resulted from this debacle.
In the time since I last posted here a number of great developments have occurred in my life as well. Namely, my abusive piece of trash "mother" passed away from complications of diabetes last April, which for me was cause for celebration. As previously mentioned, I now have something resembling a social life outside of my online contacts. And perhaps most excitingly, I now have a wonderful partner after almost six years of cold, isolated singleness. Every time I kiss or hold hands with him, I revel in imagining how butthurt my mom would get. He tells me he's "the best thing that's ever happened to him", and it's enormously gratifying to be loved by someone, and feel compelled to love them back.
As for AutismForums, I look forward to contributing more in the years to come and enjoying camaraderie and solidarity with fellow Aspies. I also am making a point to cut down on the nihilistic political ranting, because a) it accomplishes nothing and b) there's already a whole board for that. While the world may be descending into a totalitarian Hellscape, I'm making it my top priority to carve out my own little slice of paradise in spite of it all. I hope you all are working on that too. If you have any questions for me, feel free to ask them here.
Take care of yourselves! Cheers!
I originally joined this site when it was called AspiesCentral at a very cringe-worthy point in my life. I was very socially inept (much more so than I am now), failing at a commuter school whose commute was mental torture, and suffering through contact with an incredibly abusive, manipulative, and narcissistic mother.
I made a number of radical but necessary changes in my life, including transferring colleges and living on campus, going no-contact with mom for the sake of my sanity, and somehow making a precious few good IRL friends and integrating myself into their friend group. I've said before that I don't ask to be "big man on campus", just one of the guys, and with these people I feel I've achieved that. The only downside is that their work schedules make it so that we hang out far too seldom.
The past several years have not been without struggles, however. In summer of 2018 I suffered a crippling nervous breakdown which resulted in a traumatic, two-week inpatient stay at a mental hospital and a useless amateur shrink there misdiagnosing me with Bipolar I "with psychotic features". While I fully admit to having mental health issues, namely PTSD and major depressive disorder (not to mention Asperger's, which is kinda why I'm on this forum in the first place), I do not consider myself a psychopath, and resent the association with the label. I had to take a semester off college and endured a long depressive episode that resulted from this debacle.
In the time since I last posted here a number of great developments have occurred in my life as well. Namely, my abusive piece of trash "mother" passed away from complications of diabetes last April, which for me was cause for celebration. As previously mentioned, I now have something resembling a social life outside of my online contacts. And perhaps most excitingly, I now have a wonderful partner after almost six years of cold, isolated singleness. Every time I kiss or hold hands with him, I revel in imagining how butthurt my mom would get. He tells me he's "the best thing that's ever happened to him", and it's enormously gratifying to be loved by someone, and feel compelled to love them back.
As for AutismForums, I look forward to contributing more in the years to come and enjoying camaraderie and solidarity with fellow Aspies. I also am making a point to cut down on the nihilistic political ranting, because a) it accomplishes nothing and b) there's already a whole board for that. While the world may be descending into a totalitarian Hellscape, I'm making it my top priority to carve out my own little slice of paradise in spite of it all. I hope you all are working on that too. If you have any questions for me, feel free to ask them here.
Take care of yourselves! Cheers!
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