Kayla55
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However, ALL emotionally-distant parents have reasons for being emotionally distant. The heart of that reason is always that they have not prioritized their children’s emotional needs. For whatever reason, they chose parenthood or felt pressured to choose parenthood, without truly choosing their children too.
The heart of the problem is NOT that autistic parents are emotionally clueless individuals who need extra help to not be distant, cold, or abusive. After all, any parent who is emotionally distant has already neglected their child(ren)—at least, in this way. They may provide their children with everything else a child may need, yet if they cannot find a way to care about the emotional stuff too, that’s a form of negligence.
So back to my problem:
My ex said I was a socio-path that the way I empathese with kids was wrong but he was a narcissist so my intellectual love was only emotional regulation the twins received. One twin is asd the other NT.
He relapsed to drugs many times until I gave up and seperated. Times he and his Mom looked after kids was evident that leave bread pieces in corners, not throw away papers, compete with sibling rivalry. It hurt me so much because my dad was disciplinarian in those days and I viewed my childhood as unhappy, it hurts me so much. If my boy had bad day at school I would go for small ice-cream, I'd use my best derived advice to help resolve social issues, I'd inject my views on true fairness and not NT strange way. I do give hugs a d suppose first time I said I love you was to my son's. My asd son no longer hugs me, he turned around to sleep at certain age, didn't want to cuddle.
I did struggle so many times to play and relate but I really don't think I messed up my kids. Mostly people around are vendictive they are glad our family fought all years, what they fail to understand is I could never hurt a child or animal and it's not because I spent a year in foster care that makes me so. Society is so hurtful and last night I drank bottle of port to stop myself crying at Lack of support. What do other people feel about this because it affected me and I feel guilty but all times I called family to assist in my parenting that I couldn't do they always busy or help for 2 hrs and I spend rest month alone.
However, ALL emotionally-distant parents have reasons for being emotionally distant. The heart of that reason is always that they have not prioritized their children’s emotional needs. For whatever reason, they chose parenthood or felt pressured to choose parenthood, without truly choosing their children too.
The heart of the problem is NOT that autistic parents are emotionally clueless individuals who need extra help to not be distant, cold, or abusive. After all, any parent who is emotionally distant has already neglected their child(ren)—at least, in this way. They may provide their children with everything else a child may need, yet if they cannot find a way to care about the emotional stuff too, that’s a form of negligence.
So back to my problem:
My ex said I was a socio-path that the way I empathese with kids was wrong but he was a narcissist so my intellectual love was only emotional regulation the twins received. One twin is asd the other NT.
He relapsed to drugs many times until I gave up and seperated. Times he and his Mom looked after kids was evident that leave bread pieces in corners, not throw away papers, compete with sibling rivalry. It hurt me so much because my dad was disciplinarian in those days and I viewed my childhood as unhappy, it hurts me so much. If my boy had bad day at school I would go for small ice-cream, I'd use my best derived advice to help resolve social issues, I'd inject my views on true fairness and not NT strange way. I do give hugs a d suppose first time I said I love you was to my son's. My asd son no longer hugs me, he turned around to sleep at certain age, didn't want to cuddle.
I did struggle so many times to play and relate but I really don't think I messed up my kids. Mostly people around are vendictive they are glad our family fought all years, what they fail to understand is I could never hurt a child or animal and it's not because I spent a year in foster care that makes me so. Society is so hurtful and last night I drank bottle of port to stop myself crying at Lack of support. What do other people feel about this because it affected me and I feel guilty but all times I called family to assist in my parenting that I couldn't do they always busy or help for 2 hrs and I spend rest month alone.