Marcus
Star Wars enthusiast
This has always been something I've really tried to figure out my entire life, why I'm so lonely all the time and why I ended up this way.
I've never really had a lot of friends, honestly I can only remember one time when I even had a best friend, that friendship lasted about two months.
I obviously have a family that cares about me very much, but all of my life I've wanted just one really good friend who would stick by me through it all, but at the same time, I'm not a very social person, signing up here was nerve racking and took a lot of courage.
In the real world, my mind is constantly ablaze with thoughts like "What does that person think of me?" or "What bully will I run into today?"
I've always thought that with my autism and the way my mind is and operates, that that could be the main cause of why I'm alone. In person I can never look someone in the eye, it makes me extremely nervous and trying to introduce myself to people is even worse.
Outside of work and other demands of life, I find myself just sitting in my room in the dark, listening to music and trying to convince myself that someday everything will get better.
I could go on about this for a lot longer, but I don't want to write a book here.
Thanks for reading.
I've never really had a lot of friends, honestly I can only remember one time when I even had a best friend, that friendship lasted about two months.
I obviously have a family that cares about me very much, but all of my life I've wanted just one really good friend who would stick by me through it all, but at the same time, I'm not a very social person, signing up here was nerve racking and took a lot of courage.
In the real world, my mind is constantly ablaze with thoughts like "What does that person think of me?" or "What bully will I run into today?"
I've always thought that with my autism and the way my mind is and operates, that that could be the main cause of why I'm alone. In person I can never look someone in the eye, it makes me extremely nervous and trying to introduce myself to people is even worse.
Outside of work and other demands of life, I find myself just sitting in my room in the dark, listening to music and trying to convince myself that someday everything will get better.
I could go on about this for a lot longer, but I don't want to write a book here.
Thanks for reading.