Today I had to do what I dislike doing worse than anything. I had no choice... Well I had a choice to go against my boss (The President of the Board of Directors)... I had to fire an employee.
I have known since Saturday, that it had to be taken care of first thing this morning. I worried all weekend over it.
For those of you who have read some of my older posts... This was the guy who constantly tried to convince the Board he was a better person for my job. His ego was huge, he was very talkative, very hung up on himself, very extroverted, loved being the centre of attention, and would just make me look like a fool more often than not. He was an Alpha male on steroids.
I truly thought that at some point he would find away to talk his way into my position. He would do things unthinkable, and try and lay it off on me as bad communication from me, when he knew exactly what was the right thing to do.
While I was gone on my trip to San Diego, he pulled on of his stunts. He was caught drunk (possibly high) at work and had already been turned in for this a few weeks earlier. I figured he would talk his way out of it, like he has done in the past.
The Board didn't fall for his manipulation this time. I was told to let him go first thing today. They thought that would make me happy... It didn't. It made me feel sick and I have felt sick all day.
This guy was basically a monster, and my worst nightmare. He did this to himself, but I cant help but hurt for him. I didn't have a choice, and it was right to do what I did. However, he's a human being who has flaws, and I just took everything away from him.
I cant feel good for that, it made me feel like the monster, and I know thats wrong. I need to get over it, but for now I feel like I just signed someones death warrant, and after some of the things he said this morning... I pray to GOD he doesn't do something stupid.
Why do I feel bad for a person who has made my life a living hell, everyday, for 5 years?
I have known since Saturday, that it had to be taken care of first thing this morning. I worried all weekend over it.
For those of you who have read some of my older posts... This was the guy who constantly tried to convince the Board he was a better person for my job. His ego was huge, he was very talkative, very hung up on himself, very extroverted, loved being the centre of attention, and would just make me look like a fool more often than not. He was an Alpha male on steroids.
I truly thought that at some point he would find away to talk his way into my position. He would do things unthinkable, and try and lay it off on me as bad communication from me, when he knew exactly what was the right thing to do.
While I was gone on my trip to San Diego, he pulled on of his stunts. He was caught drunk (possibly high) at work and had already been turned in for this a few weeks earlier. I figured he would talk his way out of it, like he has done in the past.
The Board didn't fall for his manipulation this time. I was told to let him go first thing today. They thought that would make me happy... It didn't. It made me feel sick and I have felt sick all day.
This guy was basically a monster, and my worst nightmare. He did this to himself, but I cant help but hurt for him. I didn't have a choice, and it was right to do what I did. However, he's a human being who has flaws, and I just took everything away from him.
I cant feel good for that, it made me feel like the monster, and I know thats wrong. I need to get over it, but for now I feel like I just signed someones death warrant, and after some of the things he said this morning... I pray to GOD he doesn't do something stupid.
Why do I feel bad for a person who has made my life a living hell, everyday, for 5 years?