William Weiler
Ad Astra
1. I was extremely abused by a malignant Narcissistic and have made a fantastic recovery. Yet this is still my main daily focus and incredibly difficult. I have to make major uncomfortable changes almost daily. Feel intense unpleasant feelings and manage relationships without blowing them up with paranoia.
2. Before I accepted this reality of child abuse, I married a Narcissistic and had a son. It has been constant attacks and harassment since the divorce. I was told yesterday I will be served for, once again, more money. The painful alienation of my son. So lawyers, court, $$. These things can be incredibly cruel.
3. I have a full time job at a startup where I am a key member. Can't exactly say no to overtime when 10 other people are on the project and I am the key guy. Startups by definition are always on the edge of disaster. (high risk/high reward investment by VC fund).
4. Because of severe neglect, I have to learn everything myself.
5. BTW I am Autistic.
Then everybody stuff. Parenting - woo boy, don't go there. This is really, really hard. Preparing for retirement, fixing problems with RV (I fulltime in a 5th wheel, actually I prefer it hugely over apartment). Had a sudden water leak Sunday, what a pain.
But it is a message of hope. All the happiness and fun I have. I adore my son, and yes, I am a fantastic parent now. You should see what I can do. I have so many friends, they would do anything for me. I can do so much for others now it isn't even funny, I am so effective now. People call me wise, they tell me they envy me. It is completely off the hook. Years ago in the middle of the crap, I read this in Gahil's Gibran's The Prophet: The deeper the bowl sorrow carves in your soul, the more joy it will contain.
I think a good post would be Autism doesn't exist in isolation, but it affects how I solve all of life problems. How my approach to anything, even parenting, has to modified to accommodate it. I did an ADHD seminar as the only Autistic parent. It was hard for them to grasp the simplest things I take for granted. I am not saying in any way they are less effective, but our approaches, by necessity, have to different.
It is true people can disagree with everything in my post. Pretty standard. But I like helping others, and can point to resources or share experiences. I am not so deluded to think I know it all, have anything figured out completely, am the healthiest one, or even have the worse background.
I do want to say it is hard now and again. Well, because it is. There is too much stuff.
2. Before I accepted this reality of child abuse, I married a Narcissistic and had a son. It has been constant attacks and harassment since the divorce. I was told yesterday I will be served for, once again, more money. The painful alienation of my son. So lawyers, court, $$. These things can be incredibly cruel.
3. I have a full time job at a startup where I am a key member. Can't exactly say no to overtime when 10 other people are on the project and I am the key guy. Startups by definition are always on the edge of disaster. (high risk/high reward investment by VC fund).
4. Because of severe neglect, I have to learn everything myself.
5. BTW I am Autistic.
Then everybody stuff. Parenting - woo boy, don't go there. This is really, really hard. Preparing for retirement, fixing problems with RV (I fulltime in a 5th wheel, actually I prefer it hugely over apartment). Had a sudden water leak Sunday, what a pain.
But it is a message of hope. All the happiness and fun I have. I adore my son, and yes, I am a fantastic parent now. You should see what I can do. I have so many friends, they would do anything for me. I can do so much for others now it isn't even funny, I am so effective now. People call me wise, they tell me they envy me. It is completely off the hook. Years ago in the middle of the crap, I read this in Gahil's Gibran's The Prophet: The deeper the bowl sorrow carves in your soul, the more joy it will contain.
I think a good post would be Autism doesn't exist in isolation, but it affects how I solve all of life problems. How my approach to anything, even parenting, has to modified to accommodate it. I did an ADHD seminar as the only Autistic parent. It was hard for them to grasp the simplest things I take for granted. I am not saying in any way they are less effective, but our approaches, by necessity, have to different.
It is true people can disagree with everything in my post. Pretty standard. But I like helping others, and can point to resources or share experiences. I am not so deluded to think I know it all, have anything figured out completely, am the healthiest one, or even have the worse background.
I do want to say it is hard now and again. Well, because it is. There is too much stuff.