Fade2black
Well-Known Member
I've never felt that Aspergers itself has been a handicap in my life. But, the mental / physical fatigue of trying, but never fitting in professionally and socially has just drained me to the point of total exhaustion and self-isolation. Most of my life has been friendless yet with a few acquaintances, despite ongoing attempts at friendship. I'm in my mid 50's now, still with no friends and ironically, I'm perfectly ok with it and honestly, I now prefer no friends. Wierd?
At my age, everyone else has solid social skills and social networks. They usually have family support and are established professionally. I'm none of these. The more secure they become with age, the less secure I am for the reason I've never become better in these areas. This has lead to unmanageable chronic insomnia and fatigue, depression and anxiety.
While this may sound like I'm complaining or looking for attention, I'm actually not. I'm just curious if others who're about my age have has a similar life and are feeling the same.
At my age, everyone else has solid social skills and social networks. They usually have family support and are established professionally. I'm none of these. The more secure they become with age, the less secure I am for the reason I've never become better in these areas. This has lead to unmanageable chronic insomnia and fatigue, depression and anxiety.
While this may sound like I'm complaining or looking for attention, I'm actually not. I'm just curious if others who're about my age have has a similar life and are feeling the same.