Mattymatt
Imperfectly Perfect
Yesterday, after day two of security guard training I got to my car and had a private meltdown. This happened because I was thinking about how far I've sunken into underemployment. I justput my sunglasses on and cried. The past four years have been unkind to me. I really want to work in technology but it's just not possible right now because I've been out of work so long and my certifications are all expired. I have no money to update them.
I guess I can credit myself to maintaining control of my emotions for as long as I was able. The thoughts in my head are that underemployment is demoralizing. I want to think that any employment is good. I just need to correct my thinking. Any employment is good no matter what it is. Why doi feel like I must keep pushing myself harder and harder? This thinking is self-desttuctive. There is no reason to push harder. Le sigh! The old phrase, "Easy does it!!!!"
I guess I can credit myself to maintaining control of my emotions for as long as I was able. The thoughts in my head are that underemployment is demoralizing. I want to think that any employment is good. I just need to correct my thinking. Any employment is good no matter what it is. Why doi feel like I must keep pushing myself harder and harder? This thinking is self-desttuctive. There is no reason to push harder. Le sigh! The old phrase, "Easy does it!!!!"