McGremlinpaws
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So I am debating whether or not I might have autism.
I grew up thinking I was just a socially awkward, blunt child but ever since quarantine I’ve been reflecting more and I’m curious whether my symptoms are a sign of autism or just me trying to justify my behavior. I was homeschooled my entire childhood and was left to my own devices most of the time for some backstory. I’m just going to list symptoms that I see in myself.
- I used to force myself to stop crying when I was upset as a younger child so my parents wouldn’t hug me. I liked hugs at other times though.
- For about 2-3 years starting when i was about 6-7ish my normal speaking voice was a monotone. People used to call me a robot.
- I need to spend about an hour after work in the dark not talking to recuperate. At work I try to sneak into a dark room as often as possible to recharge.
- Sometimes I have periods of time where I feel like I have a lump in my throat and can’t physically get the words out. I can force myself to talk but it doesn’t feel good. I’m not upset or anything, I just can’t talk.
- I have a lot of issues with foods and food texture.
- I’m very inappropriate and blunt when I talk, but talking in a socially appropriate way is super boring.
- I get stuck in research on random things that I’ve seen in passing or something. Ex. the backstories of video game characters for a game I’ve never played or various forms of hypospadias.
- numerous people have made comments on my fidgeting over the years. I constantly play with my earrings or hair or bounce my leg.
- I know it’s more of a stereotype about autistic people, but I’m basically asexual. I find sex boring, I like the closeness but that about it.
- I need to listen to music while shopping or at the gym by myself or I get stressed out and anxious.
- I love small dark and tight spaces to chill in and read. Under my bed is the best spot.
- I have always been obsessed with reading from basically when I first learned to read. I used to stay awake until dawn as a child reading.
- When I get upset I have strong urges to slam my head against the wall. Like I can feel the sensation and I know it would help me feel better. I used to pull my hair as a kid to stop crying and I was a cutter in high school.
That’s as much as I can think of now.
I grew up thinking I was just a socially awkward, blunt child but ever since quarantine I’ve been reflecting more and I’m curious whether my symptoms are a sign of autism or just me trying to justify my behavior. I was homeschooled my entire childhood and was left to my own devices most of the time for some backstory. I’m just going to list symptoms that I see in myself.
- I used to force myself to stop crying when I was upset as a younger child so my parents wouldn’t hug me. I liked hugs at other times though.
- For about 2-3 years starting when i was about 6-7ish my normal speaking voice was a monotone. People used to call me a robot.
- I need to spend about an hour after work in the dark not talking to recuperate. At work I try to sneak into a dark room as often as possible to recharge.
- Sometimes I have periods of time where I feel like I have a lump in my throat and can’t physically get the words out. I can force myself to talk but it doesn’t feel good. I’m not upset or anything, I just can’t talk.
- I have a lot of issues with foods and food texture.
- I’m very inappropriate and blunt when I talk, but talking in a socially appropriate way is super boring.
- I get stuck in research on random things that I’ve seen in passing or something. Ex. the backstories of video game characters for a game I’ve never played or various forms of hypospadias.
- numerous people have made comments on my fidgeting over the years. I constantly play with my earrings or hair or bounce my leg.
- I know it’s more of a stereotype about autistic people, but I’m basically asexual. I find sex boring, I like the closeness but that about it.
- I need to listen to music while shopping or at the gym by myself or I get stressed out and anxious.
- I love small dark and tight spaces to chill in and read. Under my bed is the best spot.
- I have always been obsessed with reading from basically when I first learned to read. I used to stay awake until dawn as a child reading.
- When I get upset I have strong urges to slam my head against the wall. Like I can feel the sensation and I know it would help me feel better. I used to pull my hair as a kid to stop crying and I was a cutter in high school.
That’s as much as I can think of now.
