Fade2black
Well-Known Member
For me it was at about 6-7yo. I felt the same as everyone else, but I realized I was different in the way peers behaved toward me, and at this time I knew I didn't fit in. At about 15yo, I realized I had no friends and others didn't want to be friends with me. Again, I felt like everyone else and had average looks. It was about this time I realized that people either avoided me or used me. For example, a classmate would ask me if I wanted to eat ice cream. I would say yes, and they would say something like. "great, can you go get me some too?" And I would, without even knowing it, be duped into buying ice cream for someone who had no intention of anything but tricking me into buying ice cream. My professional career was like this, too. No friends, only people who would tolerate me and, that was because they were forced to by being around me at work. Salespeople always honed in on my difference and be my best friend right up to the point of money changing hands, then they're gone not even saying thank you. Going through adulthood, I always wished I was invisible.
Ironically, and despite being well on the spectrum, it wasn't diagnosed until I was well over 50 years old.
At what age did you have the self-awareness to know you were different?
Ironically, and despite being well on the spectrum, it wasn't diagnosed until I was well over 50 years old.
At what age did you have the self-awareness to know you were different?