Apparently people who parent children love them so much and people who work with children care about them. I don't see such extreme cases of affection towards children in parents or people who just love children. I kind of have a feeling that they can't care about children that much if they will willingly change them or brush their hair without being extremely gentle and without fearing that they would cause the young child any pain or discomfort. I also don't know how they could randomly pick a baby up without a second thought, without feeling tense and scared that they might drop the baby or cause pain. If they really cared about a particular young child or they care about children in general, how could they just do things to them involving touching without worrying or fearing about hurting them or causing them discomfort? In fact, how could they do these things at all? If early childhood professionals really loved and cared about children, how come they don't show a lot of affection and warmth by soothing, cuddling, caressing and comforting? Even if they urge to, how do they resist without going crazy?
I feel that I am sensitive to young children because they're small & fragile. I feel that I must be extremely careful if I touch them in anyway. I am also sensitive to their voices which cause me discomfort but their voices can sound really sweet and charming at the same time. I've had very little experience with them since I was twelve and quit student teaching with a dance class because of my shyness. I also feel that I'd be very shy around young children. When I was twelve, I got given a random baby from my mum's friend to hold but I didn't pick him up, I just left him lying on my legs because I was afraid I might drop him or cause pain. I did not move my legs at all but I kind of felt I'd have to deal with him until someone took him away from me which was quite a while away. Also for my dance concert, I changed some of the 3-4 year olds but I did it extremely slowly and carefully because I was scared and tense. The funny thing is that even if I'm scared of hurting them, they act like they're experiencing no pain or discomfort what so ever, so that makes me relieved.
Another thing which I don't think is a problem is that I like things that are aimed towards young children. Whenever I see books, toys, decorations, rooms, child care centres, child-friendly environments, television programs and other things aimed for young children, it fills me with joy and a sense of youth and happiness. I also listen to young children's music a lot and it makes me feel good. Things like that which are aimed for young children also remind me of young children. Although their presence makes me happy, I am shy. I also really support the development of children even if they aren't that young. I guess I have strong opinions as to what kind of environment they should grow up in, what they are exposed to ect. That stuff matters. I find it sad if children and even teenagers aren't living in child-friendly environments and if they're exposed to inappropriate things or things that they could hold off of until they're older. For instance, there may be certain songs that aren't inappropriate, but children could wait until their adults to be exposed to songs that involve themes that they are not ready for yet such as love and relationships. Instead they could listen to nursery rhymes and educational music while they are young. I don't think they should grow up too quickly in this sense.
By the way, because I value childhood development, I feel like I want to work with young children when I grow up. I've just decided recently but I keep changing my mind on what I want to do and I might for this. I think that I would become used to them if I'm around them more often. I think I want to be a preschool teacher but that would only happen if I deal with or get over my shyness and sensitivities. I figured that If I did work with children, that would be one of the best careers for other people's plus my own personal development. I would learn what I need to know to be a satisfactory and confident person not just with kids but in society. So I think a preschool teacher might be a better, more useful and more fullfilling career than multimedia and design which I am also thinking of but I'm now more drawn towards careers in early childhood.
Sorry this was long.
I feel that I am sensitive to young children because they're small & fragile. I feel that I must be extremely careful if I touch them in anyway. I am also sensitive to their voices which cause me discomfort but their voices can sound really sweet and charming at the same time. I've had very little experience with them since I was twelve and quit student teaching with a dance class because of my shyness. I also feel that I'd be very shy around young children. When I was twelve, I got given a random baby from my mum's friend to hold but I didn't pick him up, I just left him lying on my legs because I was afraid I might drop him or cause pain. I did not move my legs at all but I kind of felt I'd have to deal with him until someone took him away from me which was quite a while away. Also for my dance concert, I changed some of the 3-4 year olds but I did it extremely slowly and carefully because I was scared and tense. The funny thing is that even if I'm scared of hurting them, they act like they're experiencing no pain or discomfort what so ever, so that makes me relieved.
Another thing which I don't think is a problem is that I like things that are aimed towards young children. Whenever I see books, toys, decorations, rooms, child care centres, child-friendly environments, television programs and other things aimed for young children, it fills me with joy and a sense of youth and happiness. I also listen to young children's music a lot and it makes me feel good. Things like that which are aimed for young children also remind me of young children. Although their presence makes me happy, I am shy. I also really support the development of children even if they aren't that young. I guess I have strong opinions as to what kind of environment they should grow up in, what they are exposed to ect. That stuff matters. I find it sad if children and even teenagers aren't living in child-friendly environments and if they're exposed to inappropriate things or things that they could hold off of until they're older. For instance, there may be certain songs that aren't inappropriate, but children could wait until their adults to be exposed to songs that involve themes that they are not ready for yet such as love and relationships. Instead they could listen to nursery rhymes and educational music while they are young. I don't think they should grow up too quickly in this sense.
By the way, because I value childhood development, I feel like I want to work with young children when I grow up. I've just decided recently but I keep changing my mind on what I want to do and I might for this. I think that I would become used to them if I'm around them more often. I think I want to be a preschool teacher but that would only happen if I deal with or get over my shyness and sensitivities. I figured that If I did work with children, that would be one of the best careers for other people's plus my own personal development. I would learn what I need to know to be a satisfactory and confident person not just with kids but in society. So I think a preschool teacher might be a better, more useful and more fullfilling career than multimedia and design which I am also thinking of but I'm now more drawn towards careers in early childhood.
Sorry this was long.