I actually started a
thread similar to this a couple of months ago, lots of replies to it.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist and I'm a user of the Early Intervention in Psychosis Service. I've never been diagnosed with psychotic depression or schizophrenia but for the past year and a half they've put down anxiety, depression and signs of/psychosis. Psychosis is apparently higher in individuals on the autism spectrum according to them despite information on the internet saying the contrary, I don't know who to believe. I guess it doesn't really matter. My old psychiatrist in the end didn't think I suffered psychosis, this new one seems to think I have. Again, don't know who to believe, my gut says I just scared myself into think I was psychotic because I recognised some things I was doing then I started reading on the subject and got severely obsessed over it. Then again, I sort of hear "voices" when I'm trying to go to sleep, not sure if that's my brain running off on its own. Well I guess it either way really.
I've been severely depressed for the past year and a half, I've had a lot of thoughts on killing myself, never once acted on it though, hope I never will. The medication works really well, I get next to zero side effects. And on that note I take 1 mg of risperidone and 100 mg of lamotrigine. I find the risperidone quells my need to spend days on day playing computer games but for months I was left with a massive void of time, doing nothing, alone with my thoughts. Not a good place to be.
I struggle to leave the house on my own, get on my motorcycle and go places. I constantly think its going to break down because I don't maintain it correctly. It desperately needs a service but I find phone calls like the one I need to do extremely difficult. I wouldn't call it agoraphobia but it's anxiety of some sorts.
I also have tics. Both phonic and motor. My signature is a bit of a lie I guess. Because I display both kinds of tics I asked my now doctor if maybe it was Tourette's, they said no and that's it's to do with stress or some crap. All I know is tics run in my family and my brother was also diagnosed with ADHD which usually runs along people who have Tourette's. So I'm thinking that sort of gene runs in our family for me to get these tics. My old psychiatrist did actually suggest that maybe I did have a "some Tourette's". So once again, don't know what to make of it! I just go by what I personally believe now, all they do is make educated guesses at things.
Yeah that's me. Prisoner of my parent's house until I pass my driver's test in the new year. Then I'll have the strength to attend my peer groups more often and think about doing some paid work.
