Saw my psychiatrist yesterday and feel very thankful to my husband and teaches me, that when one does not have a "voice" and others "step in" and be that voice, acceptance comes along.
I feel let down by me, the fact that my voice is nothing; that I cannot make much of an impact; that my words are worthy of checking because of weakness of merit.
Anyway, my husband yesterday explained to my therapist that I experienced two meltdowns, with the idea of going to work, even for half a day! That my anxiety was so high, I could not cope and that I am unable to work and be a housewife. He explained that one day away from the house, causes several days of virtual panic. I guess, with my husband being my advocate, despite how I presented myself, the therapist made no arguments and phoned someone regarding financal support and then said that the form which needed to be filled in, had actually already been done! He said that it is quite obvious that I am unable to function in the work force.
I like to dress nice, basically and this has often gone against me, because I do not come across as someone who has mental health issues.
It will take a good 5 months of paper work, but it looks like that they will accept that I need help and what this will do, is put me in the French system. I will be paying tax and will get a pension. As here in France, a woman is seen as an individual and thus, if I am not working ie earning, than I cannot benefit from help in my older years.
I feel both relieved and very sad.
Therapist is also trying to get me to take meds and I am refusing. I have stopped taking venflaxine, due to the lowering of my platelets. He said that I can try another and mentioned prozac, which shows that if I did not take some kind of personal control, I would be in trouble.
I feel let down by me, the fact that my voice is nothing; that I cannot make much of an impact; that my words are worthy of checking because of weakness of merit.
Anyway, my husband yesterday explained to my therapist that I experienced two meltdowns, with the idea of going to work, even for half a day! That my anxiety was so high, I could not cope and that I am unable to work and be a housewife. He explained that one day away from the house, causes several days of virtual panic. I guess, with my husband being my advocate, despite how I presented myself, the therapist made no arguments and phoned someone regarding financal support and then said that the form which needed to be filled in, had actually already been done! He said that it is quite obvious that I am unable to function in the work force.
I like to dress nice, basically and this has often gone against me, because I do not come across as someone who has mental health issues.
It will take a good 5 months of paper work, but it looks like that they will accept that I need help and what this will do, is put me in the French system. I will be paying tax and will get a pension. As here in France, a woman is seen as an individual and thus, if I am not working ie earning, than I cannot benefit from help in my older years.
I feel both relieved and very sad.
Therapist is also trying to get me to take meds and I am refusing. I have stopped taking venflaxine, due to the lowering of my platelets. He said that I can try another and mentioned prozac, which shows that if I did not take some kind of personal control, I would be in trouble.